Day 43 - Unexpected Stimuli

Unexpected stimuli, the reactions, and why I now welcome them....

Yesterday when making dinner with my girlfriend she dropped the spice jars 3 different times in a span of 10 minutes.

Each time it happened I reacted more, with more intensity and strength of the reaction, where it was subtle the first time, just a little change in my breath and my body tensed up,  then the second time it was more of a strong energy and I became slightly annoyed, and the third time I exclaimed out loud my reaction, followed by laughing because I knew it was a possession and that I was triggered, followed by self-forgiveness. BUT there is more to be forgiven, uncovered and then rewritten to thus change my LIVING expression, where Who I AM within the reaction is just Here as Life, within and as Principle.

I notice that the fear of reaction and the fear of stimulus is resonantly held in my body as programming in my living flesh, so this writing is the rewriting and next steps in the progression of Who I am to be thoroughly, completely resonating what is best for all LIFE and nothing less/more.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the programming within my flesh - the reactions to loud sounds - within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the programming within my flesh that are the circuits for the negative emotional energy attachment of frustration, irritation, annoyance and criticism of the stimulus and really of myself for my reaction to the stimulus as I know the reaction is not best and is not even necessary, it just requires the reprogramming/rewriting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to investigate the origin point within my reaction to loud sounds, as this reaction is from the physical programming held within me, and I am resonating this ‘fear of loud sounds and the fear of the reaction to loud sounds’ UNTIL HERE NO FURTHER

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that the loud sound is really a gift, for me to see WHO I AM in the moment and to then apply Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application as I know I CAN change, and this physical change WILL come through, it just takes time and patience and consistent application

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that common sense and Self-Trust can and will continue to be Living Words within and as me, which will thus support me to take in any stimulus and process it and convert it what is best for all Life, so any loud or unexpected stimulus becomes filtered/processed through ME as who I am as the Living Flesh of Life itself as I Live in Agreement with my Principles

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize the origin point of reaction to loud sounds and thus fear of loud sounds comes from my childhood, where as a child I was exposed to the dropping of a pan on the kitchen floor, which startled me as it was unexpected

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react in fear and not realize that breathing through the fear is possible to thus regulate myself, within this I forgive myself that I have failed to see that applying common sense communication is a supportive way forward, where I can understand WHY the stimulus happened, and WHAT conditions would make it probable that something like that can happen again, so I can be prepared for something like that to realistically happen again so as to not react to it, rather breathe through it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a reaction is inevitable to loud sounds, failing to see/realize/understand that through sufficient self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, the reaction can JUST be a response where Who I AM in the moment is still Here, Present as LIFE, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand what is required to remain Present, Here amidst any stimulus

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a stimulus MUST cause a reaction, where I am limiting my understanding of the human to be just a reaction machine, simple input simple output, failing to see that the LIFE and the Directive Principle within the human CAN emerge, and it is my responsibility to thus prove this to myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have ‘given in’ to the energy when it came up, instead of realizing that in the moment to moment living, I can have steady in-breath and steady out-breath where ALL stimulus are received within the context of my breath and my principles, so the stimulus can come in, yet WHO I AM in the reaction/response is LIFE and PRINCIPLE

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to live as the Self-Directive Principle always and in all ways, no matter the external or internal stimulus/pulse, where the real pulse/stimulus is my breath, moment by moment, where I decide Who I Am within and as everything

When and as I notice myself receive an unexpected or loud stimulus, I stop and I breathe

When and as I notice myself in my mind/not being Here and breathing, I stop and I breathe

When and as I notice myself limiting myself to just an energetic/emotional experience, I stop and I breathe

I realize that any input from stimulus can come into the context of WHO I AM as Breath and as Life, where the stimulus is interpreted and SELF is the Directive Principle as who I am in each moment and in the aftermath of the stimulus I realize I am able to direct the situation always and in all ways to what is best for all (this will just take time and patience and consistent applied effort)

I realize that Who I AM is Life, and the practical breath by breath Living and Walking as Life is a process, where I will be tested over and over again, to prove to myself IF I am able to stand as Life, thus integrate any and all stimuli into Who I Am as Life, and to direct all of it to what is best

I realize that breath by breath awareness will serve as the platform as who I am thus any and all stimuli can be received and processed and integrated into what is best for all Life

I realize that fear of loud noises had been programmed into my living flesh

I realize that I can rewrite what is in my living flesh

I realize that unexpected stimuli and loud stimuli are a gift for me to really see Who I am in a moment without ‘preparation’, just straight up ME

I commit myself to show myself that I can breathe through any stimulus

I commit myself to show myself that I can be Here all the time

I commit myself to show myself that the next times I face an unexpected stimulus, I can breathe and be Here and WHO I AM in that moment will be clear feedback for my progress within my process and my Journey to Life

I commit myself to patiently walking my process

I commit myself to the steady, constant and consistent reprogramming of everything that I have accepted and allowed as programming in the living flesh, until only what is best for all remains

I commit myself to rid myself of any acceptance and allowance that is not best for all Life

I commit myself to support others through their reactions to unexpected stimuli and to thus Live as Life where any and all stimuli are brought into the context of what is best for all Life, and processed accordingly, thus always and in all ways visibly Living the Principles

I commit myself to welcome the experiences where I react, to thus show myself where I need to work on, and through breath, self-forgiveness and my Principles, I can and will work through anything and everything until all that remains is what is Here and what is best for all Life

Day 42 - Can One Eliminate the Negative Emotions?

Can one eliminate the negative emotions?

I see that as I progress to the next level, there is a new ‘problem’ that emerges.

The problem itself is not the ‘problem’, as directing the world to what is best for all will obviously have problems that need solutions, it’s a fun challenging game..

The issue that I am having based on my thoughts/backchat/reactions/future-projections is that I emotionally react to information and then DWELL in it, accumulating consequence and energy-generating up more and more I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that I have been avoiding and resisting negative emotions, when in reality whatever I am resisting will persist until it is addressed and walked out in Self-Honesty through Self-Forgiveness, where I will gain the insights and then rewrite myself and LIVE the change because that's how it works

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not clarified the realization that I WILL have emotional attachments from time to time as I walk this journey to Life, BUT this is actually a blessing because I see where I need to apply self-forgiveness IN DEPTH, until I remain Here as Life within and as Breath, beyond the polarity and emotional attachments

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that even if everything falls apart and I end up homeless on the street or we get hit by a comet, that WHO I AM as Life Substance will STILL re-emerge at some point in time, and I will get back to something like Here, and the Principle of What is Best for All Life will still apply

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to look at the most evil negative fear attachments and patterns that are existent within my living flesh to thus rewrite myself and restructure myself so that I am Here as Life as Breath, beyond the polarities and attachments that I have accepted and allowed within and as me, until Here no Further as I trust myself to redirect myself as needed to thoroughly walk out these points within me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that the ONLY way I will answer this question - “Can one eliminate the negative emotions” is through Self-Honest Writing, and Self-Forgiveness with Self-Corrective Application, where:
Self-Honest Writing allows me to script out my mind and bring it into the physical, where I can see, realize, understand and face all that I have accepted and allowed myself to become.
Self-Forgiveness allows me to evaluate all the content of my mind-consciousness system and rewrite the content of the mind through taking Self-Responsibility of all that I have accepted and allowed myself to become. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that Self-Forgiveness is ME Giving my SELF the insights, realizations of WHO I REALLY AM within and as this Life as ME as Mitchell Snyder, where it is MY self forgiveness, 100% my responsibility to work through my mind, then the subconscious and unconscious, where at a certain point, the inner-reality and the outer-reality will be understood in and as equality and oneness where what is BEST for all Life will emerge and then be sustained, BECAUSE I (Life I) have been For GIVING.
Self-Corrective Application - Through the writing and the Self-Forgiveness supporting myself to see/realize/understand the nature of reality with the negative, neutral and positive experiences, my Self-Corrective Application is my Living Breathing Example of who I AM in a moment, where if a negative emotion DOES come up, I breathe and I re-direct, and then OVER TIME and my Self-Corrective Application done within Principle, it will emerge where I breathe through ANY energy, as it is only just energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that negative emotional attachments are just energy that come from physical programming in the Flesh, where I have the living words and breath to rewrite myself as the Flesh, and the breath to direct and eliminate any energies, so I remain HERE no matter what

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that YES one CAN eliminate negative emotional attachments through breath and self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that ONLY through going through the negative emotional attachments, facing them, questioning everything, challenging every fear/belief/limitation, can one ACTUALLY then PERMANENTLY eliminate the negative emotions as they will be walked through, deleted and rewritten so the program goes from energy to Living Words that are supportive of all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see/realize/understand COURAGE as a Living Word within me and WHO I AM within and as my relationship to Negative Energy Attachment, where COUR-AGE is the Core of who I am, plus Age which is accumulation over time, where each negative energy experience is another gift where I can walk through it, grow stronger, and support the COUR/Core of Who I AM to emerge and express even more, as I Age/develop over time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that the fear I have of negative emotional experiences is able to be rewritten through Here and Now as I write out my Self-Forgiveness, within this realization I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have refused to see/realize/understand that the negative emotions are actually one of the best ‘teachers’ for me at this point in process, as the negative emotions show me where to focus and forgive, then apply Self-Corrective Application, as this is REAL Self-Trust and REAL Living what is best for All, as I learn to move BEYOND the energy/emotions and Live Fully Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that living Here as Breath, with the support of Self-Forgiveness, is the answer to the polarity game of negative emotion and positive emotion, where through Breath and Self-Forgiveness I apply Self-Honesty and Self-Directiveness, to do what is Best for all Life

When and as I notice myself experiencing polarity of either negative or positive, I stop and I breathe

I realize that both negative emotional attachment and positive emotional attachment are still just energy, and not what is fully HERE as Life Substance

I realize that negative emotional attachments are a gift for when I am aware of them I can apply Radical Self-Honesty and Self-Forgiveness to thus rewrite myself and take 100% responsibility of who I am and what I have accepted and allowed within and as myself, to DIRECT myself to always and in all ways ensure I am Here for what is actually BEST for all

I realize that the negative emotional attachment and the positive emotional attachment has been hard-wired into me from pre-programming and my acceptances and allowances, yet through walking my process within Self-Honesty I AM actually developing myself and I prove this through my consistent writing, through my expanding awareness of what is practically Here and the uncovering of solutions to support Life, and what I am able to do, with living and taking more responsibility in my Life and in the world system, breathing more and being a stable point for myself and for others

I realize that Self-Forgiveness is my SELF as LIFE for giving LIFE to my SELF and thus to ALL LIFE, as Life is Here in equality and oneness, so the work I do on myself, when done effectively, thus ripples out into all of existence, yet this MUST be cross-referenced to be verifiable by others as seen through real practical measurable changes in physical reality

Therefore I commit myself to quantifying my change through the levels of responsibility I take within the world-system, the money I make and put toward what is best for all Life, the quality and quantity of my network, and the establishment of Heaven on Earth as established through my Principles written on Day 41 of my blog

I commit myself to welcome negative emotional attachments to surface, so that I may effectively write them out and become proactive and preventative to thus just be Here

I commit myself to breathe and be Here

I commit myself to Live the word Courage (Core-Age) as the Core of who I am as Life emerging more and more as I Age

I commit myself to the starting point of Equality and Oneness with ALL Life/Substance and Energy to thus direct ALL to what is best for all

Day 41 - Commitment to Principles

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delay reading aloud and committing to the clear declaration of my Principles, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to LIVE (as Who I AM, always and in all ways) each and every one of the following principles

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize the commitment required to Live these Principles as Who I Am, and to thus Stand as a Living Example in 100% Self-Honesty, that this commitment is a 7+ year journey where I will be tested and tried, yet I will persevere

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts/feelings/emotions/backchat/reactions and the unconscious, subconscious and conscious patterns that have delayed and hindered the full expression of these principles, until Here no Further

I Hereby Commit myself to Live the Principles:

1. Living from the starting point of Oneness and Equality with and as Life - Every individual part is part of the fabric of the whole, we all come from the same One Source, as the Substance of the Universe. Equality implies that each part of the whole is equal to every other part and to the whole itself, we are all equal to our shared Source Substance.
2. Realizing and Living my Utmost Potential - Become fully aware both internally and externally of what is the best expression of myself, through Living these Principles. My destiny is my responsibility, and I commit myself to realize and live my utmost potential.
3. Living the Principle of What is Best for All - Guiding myself in thought, words and deed to always and in all ways direct all things to the best possible outcome for all. Taking into consideration the effects of my thoughts, words and deeds on the world around me (people, plants, animals, environment) and ensuring that the thoughts, words and deed I am living honor the best potential of myself and all of life to the best of my ability. Standing unconditionally in the shoes of all people and all things, and being able to at the end of the day say that I have fully considered all within the context of creating the best possible outcome for everyone and everything - that I have honored and considered them in the way that I would like to be honored and considered.
4. Living the Principle of Self-Honesty - Reflecting on myself and seeing every part of me (the good, bad and ugly) without bias or judgment so that I can take responsibility to change that which I no longer accept and allow.
5. Living Self-Purification through Writing, Self-Forgiveness and Self-Application - the action of realizing I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for any acceptance and allowance of what is not best for all Life, and to change myself to ensure I take responsibility for who, what and how I am and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with myself and so others
6. Living Self-Perfection through Self-Creation - willing to unconditionally investigate the past, create and live the change daily, and create as the best possible expression of myself that I can be
7. Investigate All Things and Keep what is Best - I unconditionally investigate, consider and introspect all aspects, expressions, perspectives and avenues of Life and assess what can practically be applied within the Principle of What is Best for All
8. The Principle of Self-Responsibility - Living and applying my ability to respond within the realization that I alone am responsible for what I accept and allow inside myself, my relationships and my outside world. Only I have the power and ability to change that which is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others. With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself and others, assisting and supporting myself and others I am committed to giving as I would like to receive and doing the extra bit every day to see where I can contribute to other’s lives and so my own. Absolute Self-Responsibility is the realization that no one can save you, only you can save yourself. There is support and we are here to assist and support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/LIFE and what it means to live - but the process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone and it 100% your responsibility.
9. The Principle of Self-Awareness - An active reflection and seeing of what is happening inside myself - my thoughts, emotions, feelings, reactions and understanding that I am at all times responsible for what I accept and allow and what I participate in and thus give my power and attention to. To realize that my words become deeds and thus the words I allow within become the actions and consequences I create without
10. The Principle of Give as You Would Like to Receive - Considering the context and the lives of each individual being. Considering, regarding, and supporting them in the way that I would have liked to be considered, regarded and supported had I been in their place and lived their life, where the support that I give does not compromise myself or cause harm to anyone.
11. The Principle of Self-Trust - No matter what hardships, failures and mistakes I may face, I always come back to myself and the principles that I stand as. I will not give up or allow myself to blame others for the circumstances of my life or how I choose to live it. I am committed to my constant living of Self-Honesty, Self-Responsibility and Self-Awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honor and stand by what is best for all and so best for me.
12. The Principle of Making Love Real - Nurturing and honoring the utmost potential in every individual (including myself) wherein love is not a feeling or emotions, but an action that is lived by doing whatever is necessary to support without compromising myself or the other - without fear of “losing” the relationship or the feelings associated to love, and without accepting or allowing less than my own or my partner’s utmost potential. Through me not accepting and allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what it means to LIVE.
13. Honoring Life in all forms - I expand my awareness and responsibility to consider and create the best possible life for everyone and everything from the large to the small
14. Relationships as Agreements - Individuals coming together to support the manifestation of the best possible versions of ourselves and each other. Nurturing each other’s potential and supporting one another to transform weaknesses into strengths. Creating a safe space for the healthy expression of intimacy and sexuality
15. Visibly Living the Principles - Actively living the proof of what can be accomplished when individuals live their potential by ensuring that these principles come through in all that I do, in all areas of my life, so that the example I set for others always stands for What is Best for All. I must in my thoughts, words and deeds, and especially in my living actions, live as a Living Example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that more people can realize how we can change this world, by standing united in our Self-Change within the principle of what is best for all, Living Heaven on Earth.
16. My Physical Body is My Temple - I honor and support my physical body as an expression of me. I nurture it and care for it in order to ensure my best possible expression in this life. I take into consideration the impact of thoughts and emotions on the physical body and within this I commit myself to practice Self-Awareness and Self-Care through not only diet and physical wellness but also internal stability and clarity. My body is me. 
17. Breathe - I commit myself to breathe and to direct myself breath by breath
18. Sex as Self Expression - Where sex is a united expression between individuals in honor, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness - a merging of two equals as one physically
19. Live the Change - I am the change I want to see in myself and the world, to bring Heaven to Earth is to bring into being, into Living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in our actions and words. Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds - my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as Heaven into Earth, realizing it is not enough to ‘see the change/be the change’ for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath. I commit myself to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realize this, as nothing will change if we don’t change in all that we are, within and without.
20. Know the Score - I commit myself to be aware of and track my financial numbers and my Key Performance Indicators of my businesses, operations and projects within Self-Honesty on the 1st and 15th of every month
21. Consistent Meeting - I commit myself to consistently meeting with my inner circle and my network to discuss past, present and future, then realign within the Principles as needed, to then direct/redirect EVERYTHING to what is best 
22. Ensure the New World IN Order Manifests - I commit myself to the best possible integration of Education, Finances, Politics, Parenting and Community within the context of what is best for all Life and purifying/redirecting these pillars of the World-System to what is best for all Life forevermore. I am committed to the consistent and systematic implementation of progressive steps, goals, daily application and systems of accountability to support myself and all of humanity to ensure the New World in Order is Heaven on Earth and everlasting
23. Self-Leadership and Leadership Development - Developing the traits of leadership: responsibility, courage, bravery, awareness and Principled-Living, while simultaneously supporting others to Visibly Live the Principles 
24. Self-Directiveness - I commit myself to always and in all ways direct myself to what is best, with my Principles as my guide
25. Heaven on Earth I commit myself to establish the World-System as a Life-giving system of resource distribution where all beings are guaranteed basic human needs are met. I commit myself to the establishment and the directing of all food, water, money, education, healthcare, housing, sanitation, environment/ecosystems, technology, government and media to what is best for all Life
26. The Principle of Prevention - I commit myself to always and in all ways do what is best, living with intentional foresight, intentional programming and living as the systems of support to PREVENT any consequence or outcome that is not best for all Life

Day 40 - Observing Principles

There is not complete agreement in the principles yet between myself and my core team/inner circle…. There are some that are VERY clear, like my partnership agreement. But within myself and others that I work with, there is room for growth and strengthening. As I observe my Life, I am now seeing this lack of principles is why it is not clear as to what is really going on with me/my backchat and my struggle of truly breaking through to the next level, as I remember that “You can only build up as high as your foundation is deep”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not clearly made the agreement within myself to the Principles, where then THIS AGREEMENT internally is resonantly held and reflected throughout the oneness and equality that is all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have wasted valuable time with not establishing this clear agreement of Principles within myself and then within my relationships with others, UNTIL HERE no FURTHER

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not seen the common sense that is relationships as agreements, based in Principle as THE ANSWER I have been looking for, which is the most solid internal and external foundation that ALL humanity can be based from, to truly create a world that is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that I AM worthy of the Principles and it is my duty and obligation and my commitment to Visibly Living the Principles and to Establish All Relationships within Agreement on the Principles within Common Sense on the Prioritization of where/with who I focus first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand the best principles for myself and then to have written them out and signed to them, as a mark of the Agreement

When and as I notice myself participating in backchat around my relationship with myself or with another I stop and I breathe

I realize that I am Committed to my Principles

I realize that the Living of the Principles will take time and Self-Directiveness, AND this is what is best, the practical purification and Living of Self as Principles, Within Agreement with myself and others

I realize that more writing will need to be done on Principles to firmly establish Self in complete Self-Honesty and Self-Trust in Living the Principles, yet I trust myself that today is enough for what I have done

I realize that having these conversations of relationships as agreements is critical

Therefore I commit myself to make my inner agreement with myself and my principles

I commit myself to write out and sign my principles

I commit myself to work through my list of inner circle and team and network to establish our Relationships within the Agreement of Principles

I commit myself to Breath and Awareness, stopping the mind and Living Here within my own Agreement with Self as Living the Principles

I commit myself to investigate the principles of others who are walking their Journey to Life, to thus strengthen the Principles I operate from

Day 39 - Details

Details…

Such magnificence in the details.. Like nice food, noticing patterns in nature, or in music, the fine details that make something exquisite and a beautiful presentation and representation of Life

Yet also the avoidance of the details…… like when I clean up my apartment and there is little specks of stuff on the floor that I then participate in backchat, where I am saying “do I really need to clean that up? Well if I clean that up then that means I have to do that other cleaning too.. Like clean my mirror and the specks on the mirror, so why am I going to waste so much time cleaning that up and then if I were to do that other cleaning too, then I’m not going to have any time to really be productive today…” (failing to see that THAT is the real productivity for me) Complete mind-ego BS 

There is a gift in the details and I have held it off for too long, time for giving …

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow the avoidance of looking at and addressing and resolving the details within my Life experience and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the avoidance of the realization of who I am as Life in equality and oneness with All that is Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a threshold in my mind when I investigate the details with detail and specificity, where when a certain amount of energy boils over, I just accept and allow myself to give up and stop caring about the details because I am fed up and I feel uncomfortable and I then talk myself out of why I need to address the details any more, instead of PRE-COMMITTING to focusing on the details as I know that who I become in this process of addressing the details completely will actually be the best version of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have believed that there are too many details to focus on in my life, that any focus on the details “more than feels good” is a waste of time, where I now forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that I really do not trust myself to be able to dig into the details, to resolve the point completely, and then to “come out back” and ‘pick up’ where I “left off” before I noticed the details (that I knew deep down would be best to resolve), so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that picking a specific point to address the details of, then working the details through to a self-honest point of completion/resolution, that this methodology IS actually practical, because it is “one point at a time” so this allows for the factoring in of reality where maybe I only do have a limited amount of time to address the detail, so I can at least just do that one point, complete it and then that opens up the next point, where then one by one by one by one the entire reality begins changing, not instantly all at once, but it is also change in an instant of the decision, because it is instant change when I go into the point through Self-Forgiveness and commit myself to work through it and then actually do work through it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize/see/understand that WHO I become in this process of investigating the details and working through the details point by point is actually the birthing of a better and better version of myself as the details are a point that I have avoided and left unexamined, so there is something to be learned from REALLY thoroughly working the point to completion/resolution, in developing overall who I am and my Self-Honest Self-Trust

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have left my floor in my apartment to be very dusty and the details of the dust are a reminder that I do not resolve the details completely, so 24/7 unconsciously in my mind, I have the conflict/friction/energy generation of ‘I do not handle the details completely’ running in my backchat and my unconscious, and then occasionally brought to my conscious when I am Here and looking at my practical reality in front of me, I cannot escape the details, so I now choose to not escape them but deal with them within practicality and common sense, as this IS my responsibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand and investigate what common sense looks like within looking at the details and noticing the details to bring them to completion/resolution, where I realize practically I can never have a 100% absolutely completely spotless floor in my apartment, it is not possible to “keep” it that way even if I were to hire the best cleaning service, the fact is Life is messy at least at this point in time, so rather it is about Self-Honesty and Who I Am within the addressing/resolving of the details that is what matters

I forgive myself that I have avoided the cleaning of the floor, making the excuses that the swiffer mop does not work very well, when in reality that excuse is just a reflection of myself ‘not working very well’ where I didn’t take the time to honor myself and my space to actually practically investigate within common sense how the swiffer mop actually works and picks up the details of the dust/particles on the ground

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have rushed through the one swiffer mop cleaning session that I took responsibility to do, where the entire time my mind-backchat was saying ‘this sucks this sucks this sucks why am I doing this? Why is this important? This sucks this sucks”, instead of BREATHING and BEING HERE, realizing the truth that THE WAY I DO ANYTHING IS THE WAY I DO EVERYTHING. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I take cleaning very seriously and I begin moving couches or standing on counters to get the ‘hard to reach details’ that I will end up losing myself and go literally insane in the process of cleaning and getting my attention all consumed in the experience of cleaning, failing to realize the common sense and the fact that I can always breathe and apply common sense reasoning to what is practical for cleaning the apartment and addressing the details to a point of what is actually best long-term within the context the details within the context of what is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to intake stimulation in order to have the energy necessary to investigate the details

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that investigating the details is boring and therefore the details are not worthy of investigation, failing to see that boredom is of NO indication of what is actually best, as boredom is just an energetic experience/lack of high-intense energy, which has no bearing on what is actually best within Principle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to be hard on myself in the digging into the resolution of the details, failing to see/realize/understand that being gentle with myself in digging into the resolution of the details is absolutely possible and I will prove this to myself over time through my living of my commitments

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that the way I do anything is the way I do everything, so therefore going deep into the details is best because that same tenacity of me in my expression of who I am as Life in 100% complete responsibility as Life for Life and investigating the utmost cutting edge of taking responsibility, that THIS expression of Life as Who I AM is best and therefore prioritizing my schedule and my days to incorporate the reality that sometimes I will spend hours going deep into the details, because THIS IS MY REAL GROWTH EDGE, where I can now Prove to myself that I can dig deep, I can uncover/discover and truly understand who I am in REAL self-honesty, through something like mopping the floor or cleaning the mirror

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to rush cleaning up and avoid cleaning the details ever since I was a child and had my chores/responsibilities to clean my room with the vacuum, within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the gift within my chores/vacuuming, as the opportunity for the establishment of myself in and as common sense responsibility for who I am and what I do, where EVERYTHING I do can and be sufficient and perfectly in alignment with common sense, through the CONTINUAL perfection of who I am in my responsibilities, not abdicating responsibility to ANYONE else, rather Living the Principles and utilizing Agreements as when it is Self-Honestly best, NOT accepting and allowing any limitation of Who I AM

I forgive myself that  i have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that the chores/responsibilities will continue throughout my lifetime, it’s not like a magical ‘do it enough and it will never need to be cleaned again’ type situation, because that type of thinking is the laziness that we have accepted and allowed collectively that is behind the trend of plastic/single use silverware, dishes, consumerism, where we abdicate the responsibility of practical use of resources from the Earth from durable goods that are life-supporting, to single-use waste because we do not want to deal with the details of the cleaning/organizing of a system that is actually best for all Life, so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that by me rushing and avoiding the details of what I am doing and what I CAN be doing to support a world that is best for all Life, that I am actively participating and adding to the energy that is the collective mind-consciousness system and world-system of money of consumerism, single-use, avoidance of details and shirking responsibility, UNTIL HERE NO FURTHER

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place blame outside myself specifically in my cleaning, where someone else made something dirty and therefore I am somehow entitled to not clean up after them and ‘resolve the details’ which is BS, I can either clean it up, or I can talk with the other to have it cleaned up, either way it is my responsibility to direct myself or the other to clean it up AND to then establish a long-term solution to either being proactive and/or consistently and effectively and efficiently cleaning it up/resolving the details within common sense and what is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize and investigate deeper the Principle of Prevention and Proactivity, where I can come from the starting point of what is best for all Life and thus PREVENT a lot of the detailed BS that emerges in the future that is not best, because when I am proactive in building systems and applying myself effectively, I can effectively prevent many of details that are not best, and I can proactively ensure they are resolved and cleaned up, either through preventing them from happening or from having a system in place to ensure they’re cleaned up efficiently 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid facing the details and resolving them because I did not want to be labeled as a neat-freak or someone who is anal and excessively clean, so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take pride in the self-identificaiton as someone who does not care, and someone who is not super-clean and does not care if I am messy as if this is legitimate to be glamorized where I am somehow ‘better than’ the ultra-clean people because I care less, Until Here no Further

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have based my behavior (and my specificity and detail in who I am and what I do) in anything/anyone outside of my self and the Principles of what is best for all Life

When and as I notice myself avoiding the details I stop and I breathe

I realize that diving into the details will show me more about myself because it is the exploration of the depth of who I am, not just surface level skimming

I realize that going into the details is able to be done within common sense so I can trust myself to dig deep, resolve the point, learn from it so it need to replay itself, and then I can also ‘come back out’ of the details and progress in the overall picture as well, as the details and the overall are equal and one

I realize that detail and specificity in my process is supportive of me realizing what is really going on Here and Realizing my Real Self as Life

I realize that detailed writing will continue to develop provided I write within Self-Honesty and continually day after day willing to go deeper and deeper, because detailed writing is the true way forward to uncover the depth of who I am

I realize that the details are part of ALL of Life that is Here, so the avoidance I had of them was the avoidance of all that is Here, so good thing I’m writing this out thoroughly…

I realize digging into the details and resolving them, like cleaning my apartment or writing Self-Forgiveness is ALL 100% my responsibility

Therefore I commit myself to continually writing out the details within and as my Self-Forgiveness and the Living the Change within and as my Self-Corrective Application, in DETAIL

I commit myself to show myself that I can address the details in any and every environment within practical Self-Honest Common Sense, to look at what is best

I commit myself to show myself that this process of investigating the details will really open up the next level/layer within me of Self-Trust, Self-Honesty and Self-Responsibility

I commit myself to show myself and the world that attention to detail is supportive of all Life as collectively we able to become aware of the extent of our acceptances and allowances, then through the extensive detailed and specific Self-Forgiveness, the answers will emerge to what is best to do and where we have limited ourselves

I commit myself to show myself how we can collectively actually Live the Change through the small details in our Lives, taking responsibility on the micro-scale, so in turn and over time we can take full responsibility on the macro-scale as we learn to trust and honor ourselves and all of Life

I commit myself to prove to myself that I can trust myself always and in all ways, and thus the world will begin to reflect this self-trust to me down to the detail and specificity that I investigate and apply in my process - which I am committing to ALL THE WAY in practical common sense