Day 6: Process > Profits (Money Observation)

This is a long one, and it is WORTH it to read aloud (starting at the Self-Forgiveness, through the end of the post), with sincerity and Self-Honest reflection. 

I've been waking up anxious, as I am undergoing a transition from "income security" to the next level of my business, which involves uncertainty and no 'guaranteed' paycheck for the next few months. I wake up with a pit of nervousness in my stomach and chest, and my first thought is about money

Through my observation, and my journey to Life, up until now, there has been uncertainty to varying degrees, surrounding money, the future, and the consequences of my actions

As of recently, the starting point of my day has been anxiety, emotion, money, fear and uncertainty

I now commit myself to redirect myself and re-establish my starting point as Life, principles and real actual TRUST (which I will prove absolutely)

I can tell I have a negative and emotional attachment around money and not having money, and the many memories I have of not having 'enough' money

This is truly the best time to write out (right out) this self-forgiveness, to work through these points around money, to clarify and purify my starting point, as there is a lot of change happening and opportunity for genuine growth, expansion and new levels of responsibility
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel physical pain, stress and anxiety from money, and not having money coming in in various points in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having more money, and the perceived and projected consequences of having 'insufficient' funds in my accounts or physically in my possession 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be anxious and stressed being in transition between work opportunities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that the money is not the real value here, the real value is Life and by creating Living Solutions for what is actually best I will prove to myself and to others that the money is secondary to creating the living solutions, and that is actually what is best

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delay writing about money, thinking that it will just resolve itself, which is actually risking the time-loop of me having to face this later on in my life. NO MORE. Do it now. Face it now. Work through and RESOLVE it now

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I am writing about the money, and writing out this point, that I will be rewarded with money once I do enough self-forgiveness, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to get a reward for writing self-forgiveness, instead of realizing that the reward is me giving myself Life which is the ultimate reward, because it's me actually living by principle, which is actually what is best

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to emphasize profits over process

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that this self-forgiveness is actually for giving myself the realization that Life is the true value of Life, not money from the world-system

I forgive myself that I have equated my self-worth and my self-esteem to money coming in to my accounts and in to my possession, which that money is actually a mirage/fake delusion and at any time the money could and can disappear, leaving me without stability, because I hadn't established the certainty within in the first place

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being tested with my emotional stability, to really face the fears of money, risking being homeless, poor, impoverished and left to "my own vices"

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that I can sell, and nobody can "take that" from me, I can sell people "on" me, I can exchange value and 'barter', because I KNOW that indeed I have value and worth, through my consistency of showing up as Life, and the value I provide by just who I am and the work I've already done on myself, through process, and this in itself is inherently and intrinsically/extrinsically valuable, so I am going to be ok even if everything collapses

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in secret mind backchat, thoughts, feelings and emotions about not having enough money or resources to eat and fulfill my needs, which is actually me participating in self-interest only, because it's me prioritizing myself and my needs over the fact that there are billions of people in the world starving and less 'fortunate' than I am based on me being 'lucky' enough to be born into a middle-class American family where opportunity abounds

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse true observation of the money-system and my direct participation in it, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to devote myself to the world-system of money over Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad and guilty about my devotion to the world-system of money, rather than taking responsibility and directing myself moment by moment in ways that support all Life in all ways, always

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build businesses and participate in businesses that are actively destroying the planet through pointless consumerism and instant gratification of fleeting energetic experiences that will not stand the test of Life and time, and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sacrifice and compromise my principles, including what is best for all Life, my self-honesty, my physical body, and who I am for the sake of money and self-interest alone, in this I say NO MORE. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a world-system of money that creates chaos, conflict, and suffering, poverty, rape, violence, abuse, atrocities, and this world-system of money is currently destroying our planet and Life, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see, feel, know and really understand LIFE, and the destruction of Life that I am literally co-creating and participating in, willfully, until NOW, and every moment forward where I will continually direct myself and prove to myself and to others that I am indeed responsible and worthy of Life, standing as Life over money. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be blind and refuse to see the reality that Life in indeed the authority over money, and this must be walked by me as Life, where I am a living example of Life as authority, that others may see and walk this into physical reality as well

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that by my starting point (up until now) having honestly been money/energy, that that starting point would have led me to a certain cap of income and level of responsibility in the world-system, and absolutely would have led me to consequence, which is not best, and Life cannot afford to have had this, therefore within all of this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to once and for all commit to stand as Life, regardless of the monetary outcome, and this is what I commit to.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that my emotional stability and my stability in my principles is the necessary starting point, that is necessary to commit to, before any commitments to money 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that becoming rich is what is best for all Life, instead of just committing to what is best for all Life, then trusting that process, even if I end up broke, dead, homeless or whatever outcome may be, to thoroughly have committed myself to what is best for All Life, no matter what, therefore I now am aware that...

It is best to emphasize PROCESS over profits, to emphasize principles over profits, and to emphasize people and supporting people to walk process over profits, and to trust that whatever the 'right' amount of profits are, will come, because the true focus is on Process and Self-Perfection, living HERE as LIFE, and as this, the world-system will actually change, purify and become supportive and Life-giving. 
So... when and as I notice myself focused on energy and money, feeling the emotions/feelings and thinking the thoughts, and living in ways that value/prioritize money over Life, I stop and breathe. 

I realize that I can and I will direct myself to what is best.

I realize that consequence is real.

I realize that the best starting point is Process and Life, and any money/energy that comes as a consequence will now be guaranteed to be what is best for all Life, provided I continue walking in Self Honesty

I realize that this starting point will allow me (if it is actually best) to truly become wealthy.

I realize that I can in fact truly trust my Self Honesty, and those that I surround myself with, to continually walk process and support each other until the Equal Money System is in fact a reality.

Therefore, I commit myself to emphasize process over profits

I commit myself to emphasize principles, Life, and what is BEST, over profits

I commit myself to show myself and prove to myself that I am indeed trustworthy of Life, thoroughly, without a shadow of doubt, and that I can be trusted with the utmost level of responsibility, to direct myself (and others as needed) when any decision and any temptation and any situation arises to choose money or energy over Life, that as Life, I will do what is Best, and observe the outcome and prove that the outcome is indeed aligned with and co-creating what is best.

I commit myself to Life-giving solutions and systems to purify the world-system of money to the Equal Money system or something even better that we can't even yet imagine, that is truly, verifiably Life-giving.

I commit myself to be a living example of what is best for all Life, walking process thoroughly until what is best for all Life is firmly and permanently established on Earth and through the Universe (you know, cuz Bezos and Elon are working to colonize the Moon and Mars). 

I commit myself to the starting point of what is Best, and this is the starting point in all of my businesses, endeavors, commitments, agreements, relationships and every action I take from now forward, and I commit myself to show myself that I am indeed trustworthy with Life, and I am open and teachable to any and every lesson necessary to actually prove this commitment (and the integrity of me and my commitments) in the real physical Universe.

I commit myself to show everyone the consequence of their starting point, and to assist and support everyone possible to re-establish their starting point in LIFE

I commit myself to purify all consequences, that Life may prevail and we establish Living-Solutions and Systems throughout the world that we all stand as Life in oneness and equality

Now, let's create some REAL VALUE. Whoever is ready, reach out and connect with me on Facebook

Day 5: Fear Bubble

Observation of Fear (the Fear Bubbles)

Fear. What are you? What is this? This is not even real… This is a game being played by my mind…. I hear the thoughts of fear as they pop up like little bubbles. I fear the loss, I fear the rejection, but the REAL ME knows, that this fear is just an excuse that I’ve accepted and allowed to exist. 

No more…

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to observe fear and misinterpret it as being real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that fear is just thoughts, it's not actually real! Just these little bubbles, that rise up to the surface and pop, disintegrating to nothingness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be gripped and hijacked by the fear bubbles, and embodied the fear within me and around me as a bubble of fear and in this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to eradicate this fear bubble, once and for all, through self forgiveness and walking these observations to Life

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to commit to eradicate fear from my mind and my being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed fear of loss to be a justification that I have used in my life up until now

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed fear of rejection to be a justification that I have used in my life up until now

When I notice the fear bubbles bubble up, I stop and breathe, I realize they are just thoughts, feelings and emotions, that are fleeting and temporary just like bubbles in a pool of water

I realize that there is a gift in the fear bubbles, they are showing me my programming. So I breathe through it… and I realize that as I emerge beyond the fear, a profound new level of reality opens up, allowing for a much richer and more encompassing Life to emerge

So now I commit myself to continually walk through my fears

I commit myself to eradicate my fear, and if I do not know how, I connect with others who are walking through their fears

I commit myself to support others to walk through their fears

I commit myself to live Life so fully, beyond the bubble/bubbles of fear, that in my final breath, I will KNOW that I have lived fully as Life, and in this I will live on, recycled back into Life, having expanded Life beyond the bubbles of fear

Day 4: Observation's Journey Under Way

observation (read this whole blog out loud)

NOUN

1. the act of making and recording a measurement
2. the act of observing; taking a patient look
3. a remark expressing careful consideration
4. facts learned by observing: he reported his observations to the mayor
5. the act of noticing or paying attention: he escaped the notice of the police

What has "observation" meant to you in your Life?

Is it active or passive? Be honest.

Is your understanding of observation actually serving you and the collective?

Or is observation something you have abdicated and avoided considering, because of an excuse your mind has made.

When done correctly... Observation (the act of making and recording a measurement) is a way to immediately shift your circumstances, and our collective circumstances, so we can truly Live and support all Life.

In this Journey to Life blog, we will come to the realization - that observation is the very act of the Life within me, that IS me. It's always been "me" "looking out of these eyeballs", "at the world". But for my entire life until now, I have defined observation with an implication of varying degrees of separation. Observation of "out there" versus "in here", "mine" versus "yours". 

In 2020, NOBODY can argue with the harsh fact that Life and this reality are being brutally abused, and I say 'oh that's not me, I'm perfect here in 'my world'" with my Starbucks, air conditioning, music and Netflix. Meanwhile atrocities are committed daily on the planet and many of us turn away and 'prefer' to avoid THAT in our observation. (That is the OPPOSITE of 2020 vision. It's literally attempted blindness, but the physical reality/Life remains. No amount of "blinders" will stop this shit.)

The atrocities require our observation, an active observation that is willing to sort it out. It's not going to all be done in 1 day or even 1 year, but it WILL be done through a group of committed individuals who actually give a f*** about Life, and are willing to take responsibility for their observation. Otherwise we are JUST AS GUILTY as the abusers that we observe, and we will die knowing that we actually didn't care, because if we did, we would have actually done something about it. 

Know that Life is both "out there" AND "in here", and this is Observation's Journey to Life.
Therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to (until now) have failed to re-define observation in a way that is actually supportive of me and of all of Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the observation is just something a scientist does when testing a hypothesis, not realizing the universal implications of observations, by every observer (which is everyone). 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that observation, when done correctly, will lead me to Life, and over time, if done correctly, lead to what is actually best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that observations from the mind (and self-interest only) are not necessarily supportive of Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to observe the fact that my observation is an asset to myself and to all, and I have abdicated this realization for most of my life until now

And I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be deluded by the mind (and self-interest only) to observation of irrelevant manners, meanwhile Life has been here, just waiting to be observed, and participated with.

So moving forward, when I notice my observations are not supportive of me and of all Life, I stop and breathe. I realize this will take practice. Funny thing is, I can't really stop observation even if I tried... So now the question is, how can we make observation the best?

Again (read this again because this is important) I realize that observation is the very act of the Life within me, that IS me. It's always been "me" "looking out of these eyeballs", "at the world". But for my entire life until now, I have defined observation with an implication of varying degrees of separation. Observation of "out there" versus "in here", "mine" versus "yours".

In 2020, NOBODY can argue with the harsh fact that Life and this reality are being brutally abused, and I say 'oh that's not me, I'm perfect here in 'my world'" with my Starbucks, air conditioning, music and Netflix.

Meanwhile atrocities are committed daily on the planet and many of us turn away and 'prefer' to avoid THAT in our observation. (That is the OPPOSITE of 2020 vision. It's literally attempted blindness, but the physical reality/Life remains. No amount of "blinders" will stop this shit.)

The atrocities require our observation, an active observation that is willing to sort it out. It's not going to all be done in 1 day or even 1 year, but it WILL be done through a group of committed individuals who actually give a f*** about Life, and are willing to take responsibility for their observation. Otherwise we are JUST AS GUILTY as the abusers that we observe, and we will die knowing that we actually didn't care, because if we did, we would have actually done something about it.

Know that Life is both "out there" AND "in here", and this is Observation's Journey to Life.

Therefore I commit myself through my thoughts, words, deeds, actions and observations to express this Life within me, and to support this Life all "around me"

I commit myself to observation in the most supportive way to myself and all of Life

I commit myself to stand back up if and when I fall

I commit myself to connect with individuals who are actually sorting out this reality

I commit myself to breathe and value the observations of Life, within me, as I walk the daily process of re-writing myself, my mind, my thoughts, words and deeds, to be 100% supportive of my Life and all Life
Observation's Journey is well under way. 

Day 3: Observing Playing Small, or Playing All Out?

Playing Small or Playing All Out?

Read this out loud

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play small

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify playing small

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘someone else will get it done’, therefore abdicating responsibility and committing myself to a sure death, rather than standing as Life and MAKING IT HAPPEN as Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the health/physical implications of shouldering massive amounts of responsibility on behalf of Life and the human race, whether this means becoming a multibillionaire or the President of a Nation, or another position of extreme power, influence and authority in the World-System

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that because I see/observe abuse, I AM the abuser (through my acceptances and allowances, action and inaction), in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand as Life for Life, always and in all ways

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become overwhelmed by the understanding of the responsibility that is required to actually purify the world-system and co-create a world that is actually best for all life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush this process of self-forgiveness and self-corrective application from the starting point of not wanting to fuck this up and actually make Life (in this current form as humanity on planet Earth in 2020) become extinct, in this I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to establish the balance of responsibility, patience and urgency

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in backchat and all sorts of fantasy and delusion about what it will require to ACTUALLY create a world that is best for all Life, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play small in my understanding of what I can actually accomplish and do as a single individual who is a node of Life in the network of Life

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I keep playing small, I will be 100% responsible for the demise of the world and I am just as guilty as the most rotten, life-abusing people on the planet, because I made the choice, to not stand and fully live my best expression of myself

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to connect with fellow members of TeamLife*, those standing as Life for Life, and to support and encourage everyone on TeamLife through collaboration, networking, providing business opportunities and resources, guidance and mentorship, to help us practically and measurably rise to positions of power and authority in this current world-system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to isolate myself on my own island and find every possible excuse and distraction to prevent myself from participating in the mastermind of TeamLife that does in fact exist here on Earth, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be the king/queen of isolation island where I play small and feel justified as the ruler, writing my rules that justify my limitations, all in my playing small instead of uncovering the DEEPEST and TRUEST Self-Honesty that I have ever known yet to date, which is the reality of Playing All Out

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to really define what Playing All Out looks like in my life and in the lives of others on TeamLife

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear Playing All Out

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others who are Playing All Out, instead of connecting with them and supporting them to clarify what this means for themselves, and for us as TeamLife to all rise together to purify the world-system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that Playing All Out is equal to Living as Self-Perfected, and even if I do fall I know that through my process, I trust myself, and this is part of Playing All Out, standing, falling, standing again, getting better and better every single day breath by breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go up until now only playing small and only getting fleeting glimpses of Playing All Out

Therefore, in my commitment to Playing All Out, I stand in this new awareness that....

When and as I notice myself playing small, or playing at any level less than Playing All Out, I stop and breathe

I realize that Playing All Out does not necessarily mean going on overdrive 24/7, that Playing All Out entails wisdom to know when to conserve energy, when to push, when to dream bigger and when to use practical sound judgment

I realize that Playing All Out is the mastery and perfection of living between Order and Chaos, standing as a living example of what is best for all Life, AS LIFE

I realize that SELF HONESTY is my guide, enabling me to be aware of when I am playing small, and Self Honesty is quintessential in establishing what it means for me to be Playing All Out, then actually in fact practically, visibly, tangibly, measurably Playing All Out that I may be a shining example to others.

I realize that Playing All Out means standing as LIFE, and calling out anything that is not part of LIFE, in a way that inspires everyone to stand equal to and one with TeamLife so we can actually make Heaven on Earth, because I also realize that we are damn near the path to extinction, and my playing small (which I have now forgiven) was a DIRECT cause of this express-trip-to-extinction, therefore I realize there is CONSEQUENCE that I will rapidly, effectively and efficiently move through, as part of PLAYING ALL OUT

I also realize that Playing All Out has the potential to be the most fun, joyous and extremely wonderful way to live life, and we are going to have the most fun, rewarding and profusely abundant experience Playing All Out, where we support each other, and if we fall, we rapidly iterate and stand again and again as Life until we have all become the Self Perfected living examples for ALL

Therefore I COMMIT MYSELF TO PLAYING ALL OUT

I commit myself to define exactly what Playing All Out looks like in my life

I commit myself to connect with others that are Playing All Out

I commit myself to Playing All Out from the starting point of what is best for all Life, in a sustainable, sound, practical and wise methodology, not some energetic ‘high’ that I hope to have (from self-interested ego), where the crash is inevitable, rather as LIFE realizing that LIFE is precious and worthy of honor and respect (through physical practical action) and it is my duty, my obligation and my responsibility to create the systems on Earth that value Life and GIVE Life

I commit myself to respectfully and effectively call out others that are playing small (while seeking to understand their journey and process) and remind them of the grave consequences, the DANGERS and the limitations of playing small and accepting and allowing excuses for not Playing All Out.

I commit myself to redefining the word Playing from the truest purest sense of being 100% responsible, standing equally as the chaos and order inherent in Life... Playing like a child with the innocence of imagination and compassion for the world, and the understanding that many things are in fact possible to create (like a world system that is actually best for all life) that many ‘adults’ forget about, where I AM a living example of what is best for all life, that is principled, yet simultaneously dreaming bigger, expanding understanding of what is possible, and experiencing the plethora of emotion that comes from living in purpose, achieving a worthwhile dream

So connect with me, it is our obligation and responsibility to Play All Out. Support each other to purify the world-system of money, to stand equal to and one with Life, AS LIFE, HERE - the time is now.

Reference:

TeamLife is defined as any human that has committed to walking the self-forgiveness and self-corrective application process to stand equal to and one with Life, that we may in fact co-create a world that is best for all Life (which is well underway).

Day 2: Observing Delusion

It's funny. If you were to ask me 6 months ago - do you trust yourself?

I would have initially said yes. As a gut reaction. Because I couldn't bear to face the reality of me actually NOT being able to trust myself.

That is an uncomfortable thought... realizing that 24/7 the voice in my head is/was not actually trustworthy.

As I got honest with myself and others who I could trust, I had to come to the HARSH realization that I really didn't fully trust myself.

I trusted myself enough to wake up in the morning when my alarm went off, to brush my teeth, eat healthy (most of the time), show up and follow through (most of the time).

But that won't cut it.

That is mediocrity.

So I got real.

I observed.

I noticed.

I realized that throughout my life, I have been impulsed by the world, and by myself, to basically automate myself to 'just get by'. Just get through the week. Just get through the day. "Brush it under the rug". Think about it later. "Not right now". Later....

That is a slow death.

That consistent "pushing off" actually compounded the distrust and delusion within me.

I knew I wanted things in my life to change, therefore I knew I must change things in my life.

What is it that I really need to change?

What I accept and allow of myself.

No more delusion. Real reality. 

Therefore (and read this out loud if you dare)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself, and not even see the full extent of how delusional I had become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it isn't even possible to fully trust yourself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not follow through when I honestly knew that I should.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel helpless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to be 100% honest with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not understand the nature of the human mind as a system that operates off of acceptances and allowances.

Therefore, when and as I notice delusion within myself, I stop and breathe

When and as I notice myself not trusting myself and not wanting to follow through, I stop and breathe.

I realize that I can trust myself, it will just take time and I can trust this process.

I realize that I am worthy of a life that is far greater than what I have been accepting and allowing.

I realize that my ability to observe is of critical importance, and I am grateful for my observations

I realize that living in delusion and distrust is a slow death, and I do not need to accept and allow that within myself

THEREFORE

I commit myself to respect myself enough to self-honestly look at my life and to look at what I am accepting and allowing

I commit myself to persist over time in my observation of myself, and my living of this change

I commit myself to living a f***ing awesome life that is an example to others, that we may rise above the mediocrity that we have accepted and allowed both individually and collectively

I commit myself to show myself that I can be trustworthy, and even if I fall down, I trust myself enough to get back up and keep going

I commit myself to be willing to be willing to change myself, from the ways I think and talk to myself, to changing what I accept and allow of myself

I commit myself to observation of myself, and taking responsibility for my life

I commit myself to build trust in myself, to move beyond delusion to real reality

I commit myself to realize that living life here is actually the most fun, gratifying and enjoyable way to live, and that I just needed to grant it to myself, which I do now.

Happy observing. Keep going. There is more to come.

-Mitch