Day 39 - Details

Details…

Such magnificence in the details.. Like nice food, noticing patterns in nature, or in music, the fine details that make something exquisite and a beautiful presentation and representation of Life

Yet also the avoidance of the details…… like when I clean up my apartment and there is little specks of stuff on the floor that I then participate in backchat, where I am saying “do I really need to clean that up? Well if I clean that up then that means I have to do that other cleaning too.. Like clean my mirror and the specks on the mirror, so why am I going to waste so much time cleaning that up and then if I were to do that other cleaning too, then I’m not going to have any time to really be productive today…” (failing to see that THAT is the real productivity for me) Complete mind-ego BS 

There is a gift in the details and I have held it off for too long, time for giving …

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow the avoidance of looking at and addressing and resolving the details within my Life experience and in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the avoidance of the realization of who I am as Life in equality and oneness with All that is Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a threshold in my mind when I investigate the details with detail and specificity, where when a certain amount of energy boils over, I just accept and allow myself to give up and stop caring about the details because I am fed up and I feel uncomfortable and I then talk myself out of why I need to address the details any more, instead of PRE-COMMITTING to focusing on the details as I know that who I become in this process of addressing the details completely will actually be the best version of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have believed that there are too many details to focus on in my life, that any focus on the details “more than feels good” is a waste of time, where I now forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that I really do not trust myself to be able to dig into the details, to resolve the point completely, and then to “come out back” and ‘pick up’ where I “left off” before I noticed the details (that I knew deep down would be best to resolve), so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that picking a specific point to address the details of, then working the details through to a self-honest point of completion/resolution, that this methodology IS actually practical, because it is “one point at a time” so this allows for the factoring in of reality where maybe I only do have a limited amount of time to address the detail, so I can at least just do that one point, complete it and then that opens up the next point, where then one by one by one by one the entire reality begins changing, not instantly all at once, but it is also change in an instant of the decision, because it is instant change when I go into the point through Self-Forgiveness and commit myself to work through it and then actually do work through it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize/see/understand that WHO I become in this process of investigating the details and working through the details point by point is actually the birthing of a better and better version of myself as the details are a point that I have avoided and left unexamined, so there is something to be learned from REALLY thoroughly working the point to completion/resolution, in developing overall who I am and my Self-Honest Self-Trust

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have left my floor in my apartment to be very dusty and the details of the dust are a reminder that I do not resolve the details completely, so 24/7 unconsciously in my mind, I have the conflict/friction/energy generation of ‘I do not handle the details completely’ running in my backchat and my unconscious, and then occasionally brought to my conscious when I am Here and looking at my practical reality in front of me, I cannot escape the details, so I now choose to not escape them but deal with them within practicality and common sense, as this IS my responsibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand and investigate what common sense looks like within looking at the details and noticing the details to bring them to completion/resolution, where I realize practically I can never have a 100% absolutely completely spotless floor in my apartment, it is not possible to “keep” it that way even if I were to hire the best cleaning service, the fact is Life is messy at least at this point in time, so rather it is about Self-Honesty and Who I Am within the addressing/resolving of the details that is what matters

I forgive myself that I have avoided the cleaning of the floor, making the excuses that the swiffer mop does not work very well, when in reality that excuse is just a reflection of myself ‘not working very well’ where I didn’t take the time to honor myself and my space to actually practically investigate within common sense how the swiffer mop actually works and picks up the details of the dust/particles on the ground

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have rushed through the one swiffer mop cleaning session that I took responsibility to do, where the entire time my mind-backchat was saying ‘this sucks this sucks this sucks why am I doing this? Why is this important? This sucks this sucks”, instead of BREATHING and BEING HERE, realizing the truth that THE WAY I DO ANYTHING IS THE WAY I DO EVERYTHING. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I take cleaning very seriously and I begin moving couches or standing on counters to get the ‘hard to reach details’ that I will end up losing myself and go literally insane in the process of cleaning and getting my attention all consumed in the experience of cleaning, failing to realize the common sense and the fact that I can always breathe and apply common sense reasoning to what is practical for cleaning the apartment and addressing the details to a point of what is actually best long-term within the context the details within the context of what is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to intake stimulation in order to have the energy necessary to investigate the details

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that investigating the details is boring and therefore the details are not worthy of investigation, failing to see that boredom is of NO indication of what is actually best, as boredom is just an energetic experience/lack of high-intense energy, which has no bearing on what is actually best within Principle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to be hard on myself in the digging into the resolution of the details, failing to see/realize/understand that being gentle with myself in digging into the resolution of the details is absolutely possible and I will prove this to myself over time through my living of my commitments

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that the way I do anything is the way I do everything, so therefore going deep into the details is best because that same tenacity of me in my expression of who I am as Life in 100% complete responsibility as Life for Life and investigating the utmost cutting edge of taking responsibility, that THIS expression of Life as Who I AM is best and therefore prioritizing my schedule and my days to incorporate the reality that sometimes I will spend hours going deep into the details, because THIS IS MY REAL GROWTH EDGE, where I can now Prove to myself that I can dig deep, I can uncover/discover and truly understand who I am in REAL self-honesty, through something like mopping the floor or cleaning the mirror

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to rush cleaning up and avoid cleaning the details ever since I was a child and had my chores/responsibilities to clean my room with the vacuum, within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the gift within my chores/vacuuming, as the opportunity for the establishment of myself in and as common sense responsibility for who I am and what I do, where EVERYTHING I do can and be sufficient and perfectly in alignment with common sense, through the CONTINUAL perfection of who I am in my responsibilities, not abdicating responsibility to ANYONE else, rather Living the Principles and utilizing Agreements as when it is Self-Honestly best, NOT accepting and allowing any limitation of Who I AM

I forgive myself that  i have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that the chores/responsibilities will continue throughout my lifetime, it’s not like a magical ‘do it enough and it will never need to be cleaned again’ type situation, because that type of thinking is the laziness that we have accepted and allowed collectively that is behind the trend of plastic/single use silverware, dishes, consumerism, where we abdicate the responsibility of practical use of resources from the Earth from durable goods that are life-supporting, to single-use waste because we do not want to deal with the details of the cleaning/organizing of a system that is actually best for all Life, so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that by me rushing and avoiding the details of what I am doing and what I CAN be doing to support a world that is best for all Life, that I am actively participating and adding to the energy that is the collective mind-consciousness system and world-system of money of consumerism, single-use, avoidance of details and shirking responsibility, UNTIL HERE NO FURTHER

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place blame outside myself specifically in my cleaning, where someone else made something dirty and therefore I am somehow entitled to not clean up after them and ‘resolve the details’ which is BS, I can either clean it up, or I can talk with the other to have it cleaned up, either way it is my responsibility to direct myself or the other to clean it up AND to then establish a long-term solution to either being proactive and/or consistently and effectively and efficiently cleaning it up/resolving the details within common sense and what is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize and investigate deeper the Principle of Prevention and Proactivity, where I can come from the starting point of what is best for all Life and thus PREVENT a lot of the detailed BS that emerges in the future that is not best, because when I am proactive in building systems and applying myself effectively, I can effectively prevent many of details that are not best, and I can proactively ensure they are resolved and cleaned up, either through preventing them from happening or from having a system in place to ensure they’re cleaned up efficiently 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid facing the details and resolving them because I did not want to be labeled as a neat-freak or someone who is anal and excessively clean, so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take pride in the self-identificaiton as someone who does not care, and someone who is not super-clean and does not care if I am messy as if this is legitimate to be glamorized where I am somehow ‘better than’ the ultra-clean people because I care less, Until Here no Further

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have based my behavior (and my specificity and detail in who I am and what I do) in anything/anyone outside of my self and the Principles of what is best for all Life

When and as I notice myself avoiding the details I stop and I breathe

I realize that diving into the details will show me more about myself because it is the exploration of the depth of who I am, not just surface level skimming

I realize that going into the details is able to be done within common sense so I can trust myself to dig deep, resolve the point, learn from it so it need to replay itself, and then I can also ‘come back out’ of the details and progress in the overall picture as well, as the details and the overall are equal and one

I realize that detail and specificity in my process is supportive of me realizing what is really going on Here and Realizing my Real Self as Life

I realize that detailed writing will continue to develop provided I write within Self-Honesty and continually day after day willing to go deeper and deeper, because detailed writing is the true way forward to uncover the depth of who I am

I realize that the details are part of ALL of Life that is Here, so the avoidance I had of them was the avoidance of all that is Here, so good thing I’m writing this out thoroughly…

I realize digging into the details and resolving them, like cleaning my apartment or writing Self-Forgiveness is ALL 100% my responsibility

Therefore I commit myself to continually writing out the details within and as my Self-Forgiveness and the Living the Change within and as my Self-Corrective Application, in DETAIL

I commit myself to show myself that I can address the details in any and every environment within practical Self-Honest Common Sense, to look at what is best

I commit myself to show myself that this process of investigating the details will really open up the next level/layer within me of Self-Trust, Self-Honesty and Self-Responsibility

I commit myself to show myself and the world that attention to detail is supportive of all Life as collectively we able to become aware of the extent of our acceptances and allowances, then through the extensive detailed and specific Self-Forgiveness, the answers will emerge to what is best to do and where we have limited ourselves

I commit myself to show myself how we can collectively actually Live the Change through the small details in our Lives, taking responsibility on the micro-scale, so in turn and over time we can take full responsibility on the macro-scale as we learn to trust and honor ourselves and all of Life

I commit myself to prove to myself that I can trust myself always and in all ways, and thus the world will begin to reflect this self-trust to me down to the detail and specificity that I investigate and apply in my process - which I am committing to ALL THE WAY in practical common sense

Day 38 - Rushing

I realize i have been rushing in nearly every aspect of my life

I eat food fast. I rush through meetings. I take fast showers. I love to drink coffee and feel the rush of the endorphins and the  caffeine hit my system. I read fast, I even have rushed through TT and I now am consciously slowing down to write this out.

I realize that in MY REAL self honesty that rushing is NOT best because when I rush I am accumulating consequences. I am just participating in energy unaware of the practicality and common sense.

For example the other day I realize that I rushed a TT sale and the client was not ready, so now I have to do a ton of back tracking and supporting the client to get clear on why they are using TT, it’s like selling and re-selling again, which is cool but I could have just slowed down and asked a few more questions, and been PRESENT, to be HERE, and factor in EVERYTHING to then ACTUALLY do what is best.

I know rushing is not best, so I am going to write this out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the pattern of rushing, unconsciously, subconsciously and consciously I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hardwire rushing and instant gratification into the very fabric of my body, through my neuropathways and my unconscious behavior patterns, until Here no Further, as through Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application I can and will prove to myself that I can just operate from Breath and Principle, and prove what True Effectiveness in Creating a World that is Best for All Life in fact actually looks like, where we need not rush, we just move forward consistently, steadily, within and as Stability within and as Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to calibrate myself with the standard clock-time, instead of calibrating myself to Life as Breath, Here from moment to moment within PRINCIPLES, where I am the Self-Directive Principle, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fill up my schedule and my days with activities that had come from the starting point of energy, where I did not even stop and breathe and look with practical common sense at what is possible and what is best for how I plan my days and thus conduct myself through my days from the starting point of breath and Living the Principles

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate consequences from rushing, thinking I was making the right moves and being productive, when in reality I was producing consequences because I wasn’t actually stable, present, and thinking through methodically what is the REAL outcome I am going for in the near and long term future, I was just focused on the energy of the present of “feeling productive” completely failing to see the long term consequences

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to accept and allow the gift of slowing down and delaying the ‘gratification’ of doing, where in the stillness and silence and intentional presence, my Real and Unlimited Self will express and build as this Self is Here in the moment, able to express as my best version of myself provided I am breathing and assessing ALL within the context of what is best for ALL, not as analysis paralysis, just within Self-Honest Self-Trust and the Principles of doing what is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not realized that rushing from the starting point of energy and instability will just create more energy and more instability, with NO guarantee that it gets me the real PHYSICAL result that I am intending, just a fleeting energetic experience... within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not trusted myself enough to have and to practice the discernment to really honestly look at my starting point within my activities and what I am doing, to see if I am just rushing due to energy, or if I am actually being effective and efficient, in ACTUALLY doing what is best, which I will ONLY figure out based on my ability to be HERE with the feedback I am getting from the environment, and factoring in this feedback into my Principles, especially my Self-Honesty, Self-Responsibility and Self-Trust

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to re-define the word rushing, from how I have used to define rushing - which is just energy-rush going for more energy, to NOW the REAL definition that is supportive of ME and of all Life, where Rushing = Self-Honest Efficiency and Effectiveness in Progress toward a Worthy Goal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take the sufficient time to clarify what a worthy goal is, when I have had some clarity, and some lack of clarity, where now I am starting to really see what the worthy goals are with rebuilding education, finance, politics, parenting and community, all from the starting point of what is best LONG-TERM, so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted anda allowed myself to have failed to see that the rushing and the short-term fix of ‘instant gratification’ and neurochemicals of dopamine and adrenaline, are just old patterns within my mind-consciousness system that are being rewritten through my Self-Honest Self-Forgiveness, and the Change is Lived through my Daily Living the Change through Self-Corrective Application, which specifically looks like Slowing Down, honoring my agreements, walking my process extensively in the writing out of the details, the intentional crafting of my schedule and the moment by moment application of Breath and Living Words to thus create AS this best version of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I do not rush, that the project or activity will fall apart and will not get completed, thus I will be a failure and my self-worth and self-esteem will drop, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to equate my self-worth and self-esteem to my perceived productivity through rushing and being busy, with or without even accomplishing anything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my self-worth in my accomplishments and what I do, instead of placing my self-worth as Life within the realization that I am Life and I am equal to all Life and I am one with all Life, therefore no specific accomplishments, or rushing toward the goal is necessary, when I realize and Live the fact that I am Life and I will continue to be Here as Life.. it however DOES matter that I actually apply the Principles and I do not just abdicate responsibility as Life for the energy-authority

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that when I say that I am worthy as Life, that means that I am worthy as Life, and AS Life I come from the starting point of Life in and as the real understanding of equality and oneness AS Life, so if I am abdicating responsibility for actually doing what is best for all Life and supportive of all Life, then I have dropped myself ‘below’ Life as I am not actually participating Here equal and one with Life, and Radical Self-Honesty will be my guide in this dance of establishing my Self and my Self-Worth Here as Life in equality and oneness, until it is verifiable and true that I am doing what is best for all Life, so within this starting point as Life, I now understand that my worth is Here as I am Life and I will honor Life in all forms even if that Life is abusive and repressed, I will honor the Life by supporting it, as I know I have the tools and the capabilities to support that Life to see the abuse it is doing, and to support that Life to walk equal and one with us as Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that Life has its pace, and the best pace is the breath, therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed ANY rushing coming from any starting point that is not the breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the limited self-definition to exist within me as the false belief that I am unable to be present with my breath 24/7 in awareness of Who I am as Life, when in reality through Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective application over time, I can and will prove this to myself that I can exist as breath in every moment, to then observe and prove to myself and to others what is really possible with existing as breath, beyond the limits of energy and rushing, and thus transforming any energy/rushing/hurrying to just me as breath doing what is best always and in all ways

When and as I notice myself coming from energy I stop and I breathe

I realize that coming from the starting point of just energy will only create more desire for energy, like a drug addict chasing a high that will eventually crash, and will actually accumulate consequences that put me/us as Life even worse off because we will have to backtrack and correct the mistakes

I realize that through BREATHING and through PRINCIPLES I can actually move effectively and efficiently through reality to actually achieve major progress in creating a world that is best for everybody

I realize that I can always stop and breathe if I am rushing/hurrying

I realize that slowing down and being present will allow me to actually ‘speed up’ in the real completion of a goal, as I will learn through this process what it means to be truly productive and a true achiever of an intended goal

I realize that I will have to face and transform all of the consequences I have created from my past rushing from the faulty starting point of just energy and self-interest, and ALSO I realize that self-forgiveness and TT will support me to effectively and efficiently work through the consequences so then I can actually do what is best and come from the real starting point of LIFE, to then truly Honor Life in all forms through my ability to support and give unconditionally in ways that are actually best

I commit myself to Self-Honest Self-Reflection, to notice where I am still coming from the starting point of energy/self-interest/patterns of hurrying and the accumulating of consequences, to then also within my Self-Honest Self-Reflection to notice where I am actually now coming from the right starting point and being TRULY effective

I commit myself to stand as a living example of delayed gratification

I commit myself to stand as a living example of true effectiveness within my planning/activities/reflections and Who I AM

I commit myself to continually practice Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application and to share these benefits with others, as these tools are the most powerful tools I have found and they will support billions of people as we collectively walk this journey to Life, breath by breath, no “rushing/hurrying” needed just real effectiveness to do what is best developing more and more in each and every moment

I commit myself to LIVE the Real Re-Definition of Rushing - to be Self-Honest Effectiveness and Efficiency in progressing toward worthy goals

I commit myself to prove to myself that I can breathe and operate from awareness more and more until it becomes who I am, and I operate from this starting point of what is actually best for all Life

Day 37 - What Will I/We Do?

(This blog is written in the context of Self-Forgiveness - so as you read through, Read the Self-Forgiveness/Self-Realization and Self-Commitment statements of this post out loud) I am really reflecting on this concept of Will - and my own Will Power and what I Will do with my Life - especially as of recently, as I am now seeing directly Who I AM and the positions of responsibility that I have taken on - and these decisions/acceptances/Will that continually accumulate, each and every day as my decisions are now clearly affecting more and more people

Especially now living in Minneapolis and noticing the riots happening in response to George Floyd being murdered by a police officer, I literally see the city burning in front of me out of my window.

I see my actions or inaction directly influencing the community as I run a meetup and we gather once a week and discuss how to support ourselves and our community through education, finances and creating real systematic change. Both inner change and taking real responsibility to create systemic change within the community and then globally.

There are still old patterns I notice come up, where it is “easy” to just blame something else but that is not what is best. Any blame and excuse and justification is not acceptable. What is my responsibility in this?

I notice that the pull/pattern to ‘blame’ others is less than I have ever had it. Thanks to the extensive use I’ve done of 2+ hours a day of TechnoTutor, consistently writing and working through DIP Pro, with the extensive support of my buddies and network. I can tell I am changing internally as it is reflected externally through the level of conversations, who I am speaking with, the growth of my businesses and the amount of people consistently attending our meetups.

Now I look ahead and see that in the aftermath of the riots, whenever they are over, WILL be the process of rebuilding but THIS TIME from the starting point of what is really best, what is REAL support for the community, what can we REALLY do, how can we REALLY ensure that Police are held accountable in the legal system, how can we ensure that Police and Citizens have the ability to express themselves, to understand each other, to coexist in a Civil Society where nobody need operate from fear, but rather through Principles - like what is best for ALL.

This is a real journey, a real test of my character and my Will.

This starts within me.

Within my will.

My moment by moment accumulation of responsibility or my abdication of responsibility.

What WILL I choose?

What WILL we choose?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in behaviors, acceptances and allowances that have degraded my willpower and twisted my willpower so that my will had been NOT aligned with what is actually best for all Life. Until Here no further.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself within and as my reaction to my mind’s projection of the future, to react in fear, that if I continue to WILL myself to stand up and support other community members, that I WILL end up in public leadership positions and thus be a target for attack because I am willing to stand for what is best for all Life looking for others who are willing to Stand as Life as well

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear “losing myself” to a greater purpose, when in reality, this is clearly what is best, and I trust that in this WILLING of myself, I will actually for the first time in my Life truly FIND myself - this time AS LIFE, the greater collective, embodied as me as an Absolute Individual, in the Perfected Form of Ego, not living in self-interest, rather Living and Directing Self within the context of what is best for each and every individual, and for us together as a collective

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself into thinking that writing out my blogs daily and practicing Self-Forgiveness is just this neat process that will take place in isolation and I do not need to actually face the complete extent of my fears, as I now see that absolutely that as I change my inside, I will be tested by the external world to see if I am serious in my change and if I WILL actually stand in my change, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize the gift that is these moments of realizing where I can take more responsibility and TAKING IT, even if I do not have the perfect plan or thought process in place, I know that I know enough and I have enough connections and support around me to figure it out, because I know that what we are doing with Self-Perfected, the Meetups, TechnoTutor and the other business ventures is ALL coming from the starting point of truly empowering real education and real effective resource distribution in the communities, and the continual WILLING of myself through my daily application within work, building the businesses and running the meetups within the systematic approach of creating communication and clear direction forward - these are all clear next steps to empower and build our communities in a way that is supportive of all Life, and this will be the test of my character and my WILL that I welcome fully

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear FULL commitment, that I somehow <100% commitment will cut it, when in reality that is an excuse, and that is the abdication of responsibility, anything less than 100% is 0.. And I understand this within common sense, that is a consistent process over time, where I build to 100% and I am tested on 100% over and over and over UNTIL I am verifiably 100% standing as Life, which I am prepared to do over time. Real WILL Power is becoming fully understood through what I do daily, moment by moment, within Self-Awareness and Principle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look to others to see what they are doing from the starting point of wanting to see what others do and to respond based in what they’re doing, failing to see that that habit is an abdication of self-responsibility and self-directive will, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to take 100% responsibility for my decision-making and to thus direct myself within and as Principle to what is best, REGARDLESS of what others are doing, then of course within common sense, realizing that we are interconnected and interdependent, to then investigate and connect with others to determine what is best, but it FIRST comes from that Self-Responsibility and Self-Directive Will, where this time and moving forward I walk in Self-Trust, rather than dependency on others to do the reasoning or the work for me… it is on ME and my operation from my Principles

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking on responsibility and losing my Life/dying because of it, when in reality by me NOT taking on responsibility and doing what is best for all Life would be the real death, a slow death of regret and withering away to non-existence and complete irrelevance, completely failing to give Life as I was given Life, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the common sense that I was freely given Life, thus within the Principle of Giving as I want to Receive, that I now dedicate myself to Giving Life to others, to thus support the cycle of Life that is For Giving, where we can now open up new possibilities within humanity/Life/what is Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to talk myself out of doing something because I feared it, when in reality looking at the common sense and my Principles, I knew it was better to actually do the action, so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed weakness within myself, and the acceptance and allowance of the degradation of my Will Power, until Here no Further

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not realized the power of Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application in the reconditioning of my Will to establish my Will and the Will of our Community to what is best for all Life, first within and as the System, and then the re-willing of the System to a Life-Giving System supportive of all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not practically investigate the next steps for reconditioning my Will through my Living Expression and Standing as a Living Example of what is best, by speaking out on social media, connecting with others in the community and truly building on solid foundation first within myself and then supporting others to do the same

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not fully trust myself and my word, when I have made a decision and “willed” myself to make the decision, but not had the integrity to follow up in all ways to back that decision with the Will of consistent and disciplined action, until Now as I am proving to myself and to all that I can and will continually walk my process, sharing my journey and working on real practical solutions to support the basic needs being covered in the city, so we can document and replicate this model city-by-city around the world, all starting with the 1+1 relationships that I have with others Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the distractions and the hard-wiring of distraction and avoidance to exist within me and to exist in the “external” world-system, where we collectively accept and allow our Will to be degraded and by-passed and manipulated by the system which WE have accepted and allowed and co-created, Until HERE no Further, this New System that is Life-Giving starts within me, and is Lived through my daily application of Principles as I WILL this Life-Giving System into existence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the common sense that the best way forward and the ONLY way forward that is worthy of our individual and our collective will is the creation of a world that is best for all Life, where we have equal opportunity, equal education, equal resource distribution and the basic human needs covered, as a BASIS so we can collectively go up to the ‘next level’ and really start Living, not just suffering/paying bills/getting by until we die. And no this is not communism, this is just basic common sense resource distribution, leveraging what is possible with Technology to empower the equal opportunity to basic human needs being met, THEN individuals are allowed to grow on TOP of this basic foundation where all of Life is treated equally and valued as Life equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the abuse of myself and our world through the ignorance to how the mind really operates and functions, where our mind-energy-consuming-system is generating conflict and consuming this entire physical reality into a momentary experience of negative, neutral and positive emotion, completely failing to see that the world is burning up right in front of our eyes, and we can STILL DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, so that time is NOW…. WILL we?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest with myself about the activities and the actions I am doing/accepting/allowing that degrade my will power, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have feared the neurochemical pain of breaking these addictions, like youtube, sleeping in, f***ing around not making REAL things happen, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that I have been deluding myself the withdrawal is not worth the change in my WILL, so I just continued the dishonesty, UNTIL HERE NO FURTHER

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the gift that is the withdrawal and the change and the breaking of the patterns, that even if it is uncomfortable and I feel sick and gross and like I want to ‘cave back in’ to the old habit, that I can always breathe and practice Self-Forgiveness, and this is the REAL walking of the Self-Corrective Application breath by breath until in my 100% Self-Honesty and Self-Trust I can say I am taking 100% FULL Self-Responsibility for Self and World, to direct myself and support us all to direct ourselves to what is best for all Life within and as practical Common Sense

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am Here, breathing, alive, with Self-Awareness and the perfect recipe is HERE of the current situations and turmoil of the world to see JUST how F***ED this has gotten, so we can now take a real STAND for and as Life, what is best for ALL Life, and to bring about a world that is best for all, and THIS is actually the most fun, exhilarating, testing, difficult, worthy cause I could EVER devote myself to and dedicate myself to, which I am now. WILL we sort it out? You can be certain I WILL. But “I” is not enough, it’s time WE go from I to WE, where WE take a stand, and walk this process of Self-Perfection to World-Perfection.

When and as I notice myself using my will power to ANYTHING else that is NOT best, I stop and I breathe

I realize that I am smart enough to figure out what is actually best in a situation

I realize that the time is now to step up and act on behalf of the community and the world, or it WILL get worse

I realize that through the connections we have and through the support we have, we have all we need to take the next steps, so WILL we?

I realize that UNLESS we stand together, any change will not last, so a community is required

I realize that education and increasing our fundamental understanding of how systems work and how the human exist within the system is essential to changing the systemic issues we are seeing through the riots, COVID and the overall suffering in the world

I realize that I am capable of far far greater than I previously conceived

I realize that WE are capable of far far greater than WE previously conceived

I realize that writing my Self-Forgiveness and LIVING The Self-Corrective Application CAN and WILL prove that I can and will stand as a Living Example so that others may see what is actually best, and this will take time, and that Time is the true test of the Will, which I WILL prove and this will be documented publicly through my blog, through my facebook and other social media channels

I realize that the Youth Mentorship Programs in the City of Minneapolis are a next logical step, and there will be MUCH more built on these platforms I cannot yet see in May of 2020, but this WILL unfold

I realize that my WILL power will be one of my greatest assets, so I continue to invest in it and test it in more and more ways so that with 100% self-honesty and self-trust I WILL be able to stand as Life no matter what

Therefore… 

I commit myself to breathe and continually direct myself to what is best, within and as the awareness that Will is a force that is within me that is based in intention, decision, acceptance, allowance, and is sculpted over time

I commit myself to the 7+ year journey to Life to walk it with efficiency and effectiveness, remembering that if I fall and participate in Self-Dishonesty, there is consequence, so I move forward practically, not worried/fearful/overthinking, just within common sense, remembering that breath, Self-Forgiveness, Self-Corrective application are all tools that will support me and our community to collectively sculpt our Will so that we stand as a Living Example for the World of what is possible

I commit myself to rise to whatever level of responsibility is required to establish a world that is best for all Life that is verifiable where all can see/realize/understand that THIS is really what LIFE is about

I commit myself to challenge my will power within and as Common Sense, so that I can stand as a Living Example with no fear or doubt existent within me that my ‘will power is not sufficient’ as I will prove it IS - and this will show through my practical Living and directing anything and everything to what is best

I commit myself to humility, to listening to what others need, to supporting others unconditionally within common sense, and to develop Self-Leaders within the community and around the entire world