I just became aware how much is going on in my mind. I've been observing the quarantine, staying in doors most of the time, only to go out for groceries or walks.
Things have become more virtual. In this there is a new 'normal' that's emerging.
Overall I've been reading books, listening to videos, using a lot of TechnoTutor and absorbing tons of information. I've increased my processing ability, but there's a missing piece here....
Consistent writing.
Consistently getting my mind OUT and into the physical.
This is a missing piece to me... I've noticed the benefits in the past of daily consistent writing, then I fell off, just went back into 'absorb' mode, which is comfortable to me, it's easy to read a lot of books and watch youtube videos and journal.
But the output, the active writing OUT of what's inside, that is key.
My head is like a chamber and right now there are so many sounds resonating, I wake up and there are about 300 different unique thoughts that run through my mind.
Let's work through this now...
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate responsibility for my writing until it got to this point where my thoughts and resonance is so loud in my brain that I can barely have stillness and peace of mind, even if I sit still and just breathe, the thoughts are rampant LOL. I am literally laughing out loud at myself right now, with just how many freaking thoughts and the amplitude of the thoughts.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize the simplicity of the 'self corrective application' cycle, that is Live, Forgive, Become Aware, Commit (thus correct) and Live again. I have been going ALL OUT on Living, but the cycle has to now reach a new level of homeostasis and balance, to allow the real Living to take place, as living without Self-Corrective Application is an abomination of true Living.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for not having written daily, not seeing the blessing as this current state I am in, of having a profuse abundance of thoughts in my brain/being that are flying around, most of them are actually very empowering and very important thoughts about building my businesses, supporting others, seeing what a world that is best actually looks like through the realm of education, money and what communal support looks like, HOWEVER, I forgive myself that I have not been accepting and allowing myself to realize that this specific vantage point here, now, is in fact one of the most valuable cross-reference-worthy points I have ever experienced, as I now know what it feels like to have an excessive imbalance of input, without enough output/processing of the mind-consciousness-system, where I wake up with 300 thoughts flying around.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to write even more specifically, thoroughly and extensively to work out these points in my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rush through writing self forgiveness, not realizing that rushing is literally missing the point of writing self forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have 'too much' in my mind and have not taken seriously the process of writing it out, writing myself to freedom, so I can stand as a living example for the entire world, as Life
When and as I notice myself having tons of thoughts and feeling imbalanced, I stop and I breathe
I realize that I have the tool of writing always available to me
Writing is the process of getting my mind out of my mind and into the physical and it feels good to get this out, because then the real me may emerge that is able to direct myself with clarity and certainty, as my beingness actually knows what is best, and I don't have to waste time, energy and mind chatter on second guessing myself, rather I am clear and I direct myself
I commit myself to writing self-forgiveness and self-corrective application every day, even multiple times a day, even extensively for hours and hours if that is what is best, because writing self-forgiveness is the tool that grants myself freedom, it is how I free myself from the mind and self-interest, and thus live as LIFE.
I commit myself to write even more thoroughly, as writing self-forgiveness allows me to support myself and others even more effectively
I commit myself to remember this cross-reference point, of waking up day after day with racing thoughts and ideas, as this had been the result of me not writing consistently, so it is actually a gift I am giving myself, to realize that that is not best, to not have an 'outlet' I consistently utilize and respect as the proper 'outflowing' of the mind consciousness system to bring it into the physical, and thus establish myself Here in the physical, which is where I commit myself to operate from
There is a lot in my mind, and I am getting it out into the physical.
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