Day 11: The Real Starting Point?

Starting point is imperative.

To be clear on one's starting point is true awareness, and that determines where everything is headed.

My starting point in this specific post is to CLARIFY my starting point within my blogging, writing, and working through my mind-consciousness system.

Yesterday I was talking to my buddy Gian from Desteni and he helped me to become very clear, I am starting to see that in fact my starting point and direction within and as my writing has still been just ego.

My ego was shocked.

I hit a massive cognition.

Gian supported me to the awareness of the deeper layers of my starting point.

My starting point has been sex and money with a specific interplay of believing that if I get enough money then my sex life will be satisfying. Therefore my starting point has been f***ed by money, and by my own ignorance...

So now I breathe and I write it out... and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not seen the truth of my starting point until now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see and realize that my starting point until now has been sex and money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not understand the magnitude by which sex has shaped my desire to make more money, in this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to come from the starting point of seeking more sex, better sex, satisfying sex, continual sex, and that has been the addiction and enslavement of myself, through my actions and my thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate money, focus on money, be obsessed with money, and build businesses and devote my life to money, from the starting point of the belief that if and when I get 'enough' money, I will guarantee my sex life will be that of my desires stated above

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see the reality of the sex and money interplay on the subconscious and unconscious levels within myself and others, as these two driving forces have been the driving forces within me that I have refused to see, until now

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in my obsession and the years of my life devoted to sex and money, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the reality of how sex and money drive my life, like a slave-driver whipping me along, demanding that I do these actions, think these thoughts, behave in these ways, all to earn money and sex so I may be temporarily satisfied, COMPLETELY abdicating responsibility for doing what actually matters in the world to create a world that is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that sex and money will solve my problems, when in reality, writing and going through DIP (or DIP Lite for beginners), then applying these changes in real physical reality is the answer to my problems, as through the writing and the prompts through the course and the work with the buddies, and the practical daily living this and proving my integrity to what I do in the course to what I do in my Life, that is how I give myself the answers to my problems

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that anyone else outside of myself can actually solve my problems

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see the simplicity of what dedication to writing and self-forgiveness can in fact do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the obvious, of the impulse and addiction and obsession with sex and money, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to repress these impulses deep into the subconscious, perpetuating me acting and living on autopilot

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to do the writing necessary to purify my starting point to be one and equal with Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself that I have not yet fully done the writing necessary to purify my starting point to be one and equal with Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize the simplicity of this process, which includes finding the key charged memories, and writing them out, then specifically doing self-forgiveness on them until I reach the point where the memory is neutralized and 'cleared'

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to effectively move through process, to thus eradicate the self-interest of sex and money, and to redefine sex and money to be components of Life, in a way that is supportive of Life, instead of the current abusive reality that sex and money exist as, for which I am responsible

When and as I notice myself thinking about sex, I stop and I breathe

I realize that sex is a necessary part of Life and can indeed be Life giving, when and as I purify my starting point within sex, which is done through effective Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application, and Living it in the real world

When and as I notice myself thinking about money, I stop and I breathe

I realize that money is a tool that may be used to support all of Life, and in this it is necessary to purify my starting point within money, which is done through effective Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application, and Living it in the real world

When and as I notice myself experiencing backchat and the subconscious programming within myself, I stop and I breathe

I realize that my process is reaching deeper levels, and this is a wonderful opportunity to write even more effectively and sound out even more effectively the Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application, so that I may Self-Honestly get to the point of Self-Perfection through Self-Creation, which is a process of walking each of these points out in my mind and into the physical, where the real proof of my process will be known as I will be a living example for others and the proof will be measurable by my actions and the results of my actions in real physical reality

Therefore...

I commit myself to work through every single memory around sex and write it out until there is no charge

I commit myself to work through every single memory around money and write it out until there is no charge

I commit myself to work through every single memory of my starting points, which includes my subconscious and unconscious programming

I commit myself to daily writing from the starting point of actually getting to the starting point of Life

I commit myself to being gentle with myself

I commit myself to writing with specificity and thoroughness

I commit myself to humbly yet confidently walking this process as I establish Self-Trust and I prove to myself and to others that I am in fact worthy of trust, as I show up consistently, with dedication and purpose to getting to the real starting point of Life

I commit myself to keep breathing