Day 51 - To Unconditional Enjoyment

In the process of getting a house. I notice myself impatient with the application. I did everything I could and now we wait 1-3 business days. It's like I place a condition on my enjoyment of Life. Rather than realizing the gift that is here, and doing my best in EVERY moment, not just when I get some result/reward that I'm hoping to get.
So today the thought popped up - "I can’t enjoy myself until I know the answer." which is an ineffective thought...

You know what that means... SF time.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize the common sense solution that I CAN enjoy myself and what I do as I Live as Directive Will and Movement toward what is best, thus I do everything required as I trust myself to know what must be done, and then I keep moving and keep moving in steadiness of purpose

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize the gift in the unknown and the uncertainty, as who I am is Life Here and I am able to evolve/adapt/support myself even more effectively and support the world as there is now more 'space' that just opened up, I took all the action I could, in my self-honesty I did my best, so now the 'waiting game' is a gift as it is really just the gift that is Life being Here, where every day every breath I can express myself more fully and do what is best

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that it’s not possible to enjoy being Here because of some conditional circumstances unfolding, failing to see/realize/understand that I am equal to Life and thus all situations are a gift and a reward as I am the gift and the reward, and the universe is reflecting this to me as the Universe is You/Me in Reverse, thus Walking consistently moment by moment breath by breath in Self Honesty doing what’s best is WHO I AM

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to redefine enjoyment in a way that is best for all, where ENJOY is LIVING HERE in equality and oneness, doing REAL physical things! Not a silly mind-state. PHYSICAL HERE PRACTICAL EQUAL AND ONE.

When and as I notice myself believing or worrying that I can’t enjoy something until I know some outcome that will take time to even know it, I stop and I breathe

I realize that I have forgiven myself plenty, and that the walking in breath by breath is the reacclimation of Self to Here, the calibration and synthesis of SELF as ALL as HERE as LIFE as what is best for all Life, this is me and who I am

I realize that enjoyment is physical practical equal and one living thus I am able to ALWAYS enjoy myself if I apply my directive Will, HERE

I realize that I can keep moving all the time and thus there are fun surprises and whatever happens I trust myself and my creative learning ability to LIVE as LIFE and direct any situation to what is best and even if I fail at getting the outcome I have intended, I realize my REAL DIRECTIVE WILL is the secret key that I have missed yet it is now HERE, THUS

I commit myself to breath by breath activity and making the most of every breath and every day, moving forward, clear, walking my journey to Life as Life

I commit myself to prove to myself my starting point is BEST FOR ALL MOVEMENT and ACTIVITY as I know/see/realize/understand that there will be countless situations with unknown outcomes and the best route forward is breath, living forgiveness and applying myself to the physical and what is at hand

I commit myself to show myself that staying physical and being physical is the answer to everything where I am equal to and one with the physical thus any thinking/consideration/regard is my directive will and my physical/visible living thus I do what is best, and should thoughts pop in of what else I could do, I do it, but I need not ruminate anymore and I LIVE the correction, and when the next steps pop up that I must do and that is best to do, I walk and breathe, Taking myself seriously yet with enjoyment of Living this Life, breath by breath, what a gift!

I commit myself to support others who ruminate and worry about future events, to support them to take action and to add value to them so that they can see/realize/understand the Living Correction of Self Here where always and in all ways we do what is best for all Life thus no need to waste any time and energy overthinking, just directive will 24/7