Day 17 - Child's Play Energy-Generator

I suggest reading Heaven's Journey to Life and Creation's Journey to Life out loud, one (of each) per day, to understand the context of Energy-Generation, the Mind-Consciousness System and the World-System of Money

When I was a child I was obsessed with this imaginary battle in my mind

I wanted to always have this battle playing out as I glorified the winning team and the losing team, and the battle would always continue. Never finished, just participating in the battle for the sake of the battle but getting closer to victory.

This was ‘pretend play’, but I took it to extremes, for hours and weeks and years I had this fight in my mind between good and evil.

But I remember that I would let the thoughts run absolutely rampant and they had nothing to do with physical reality.

Obviously kid’s being able to play with imaginary toys and their imagination is not inherently a bad thing, but the level of obsession that I began to have with this battle, and with not being Here, there is something to that. Also that this energy I was generating through conflict was clearly not going to what was best, which would be providing basic needs for the entire world. 

I remember hating going to school or doing anything with adults/other kids, so I would use that negative energy and then project it into the positive of this imagination land of me being in a battle and me being on the team of the heroes.

I remember that I was not always one main character, and that the team I was on would sometimes have people die, as there was emotional charge to that.

Even at a young age of 8 and 9 that my mind had begun generating energy based on negative, neutral and positive emotions and feelings, and I would be consumed by this.

I remember the act of wanting to play/wrestle with my dad and pretend we were the beasts in from the game/TV show called Beast Wars... Thus began the inner war of the Beast within me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play indiscriminately by myself and battle these characters in my mind without any regard for the consequence of what I was doing, just purely participating in the energy-obsession

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize the root of the energy obsession just yet

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto rage/anger/destruction and have participated in negative, neutral and positive emotions through these imaginary battles in my mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the pattern of negative, neutral, positive energy to be embedded into the very fabric of who I am, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the pattern of negative, neutral and positive energy within and as my unconscious behavior/mannerisms, my subconscious personalities and my conscious thoughts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that the imaginary battle in my mind was a participation in mind-energy and ego, and was equal to and one with the actual abuse/war/fighting/conflict in the world-system for which I am responsible, as I abdicated my Life Substance to being a resource for the energy to feed off of

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that I am guilty of the entire world-system and mind-consciousness system, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that I am innocent because I was just playing alone in my room, failing to accept and realize and LIVE the reality that as a physical human being/body I am literally one and equal with all physical reality, therefore my participation in the energy was NOT alone and NOT done in isolation, it was and is all equal and one with the physical. The interconnectedness of everything is real, so there is no excuse acceptable. The abuse is unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the abuse of this world-system through my mind-consciousness system participation and obsession with energy-generation and conflict, and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fake-innocent character in my mind - equal to and one with me - to believe that I am able to wash my hands clean of the suffering and abuse of the world because I go to church and I listen to my parents and there is a heaven where because I believe that I am ‘good enough’ that I will be allowed to exist, which COMPLETELY is an abdication of real worthiness of Life and responsibility as Life, as Life is and has been HERE and it has been and currently is being abused and I did NOTHING in real reality to change it, I only participated in compounding it and adding energy to it!!!! This is the first time I can self-honestly say I am now doing something about it and actually making progress in correcting it as now as I have begun the Self-Honest Self-Reflection process that will take YEARS to walk, but it is breath by breath, 1+1 in Self-Honesty with DAILY writing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see/realize/understand that my time/energy/attention was not used for what is best, and it could have been used for doing what is actually best for all Life, which would have been using that energy/desire for conflict to a disciplined practice that would build me up as a human to become the kind of person that can Live as a Living Example where I am Life-giving and distributing resources to all Life that is in need. I was pre-programmed with the mind-consciousness system but there is no excuse to not walking this process to re-birth myself as Life. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that any excuse is valid and legitimate, NONE are. There is no excuse. I am aware of the Self-Forgiveness process so I walk equal and one as Life and being Life-giving, no matter what comes up, I use Self-Honesty, Self-Reflection, Self-Corrective Application and visibly Live the principles, breath by breath, 1+1.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself with others in my reflection of my childhood, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to understand that my “unique” childhood experience and the programming I accepted and allowed has formed my resonance to this day which I am now in the process of structural resonance alignment to rewrite and re-right myself to living as what is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed images from the media, from toys, from culture and consumerism to all exist within and as me, accepting and allowing the harvesting of the physical body resources all for the energetic experience of the imaginary battles which are really just conflict generations that feed the mind-consciousness system an the world-system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to really investigate what the best version of child play actually looks like

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to support children through programming and standing as a Living example of what is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for delaying DIP Pro as this is really the first time in my Life that I can self-honesty say I am getting to some point of Self-Trust and Self-Perfection, and I realize this will take time and consistent daily application

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to talk more about DIP with others, as this is a process that is necessary to Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel special and a desire to be recognized for my imagination, as I believed my imagination was elaborate and special and therefore I wanted recognition for being unique/special, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am only my mind-consciousness system/imagination, completely missing the reality that I am Here as Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the temptation of and as energy and energy saturation to be the directive principle behind my actions, defying Life and deifying energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the obsession of energy accumulation and energy saturation, from the negative, neutral and positive experiences I would generate in myself as my own energy-god, to be the directive principle of my Life, completely abdicating responsibility for myself in and as the physical, equal and one with physical reality and Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blindly participate in the energy obsession, not realizing the consequences and not even caring about them because it felt so good and so fun to play in the ‘positive’ world of my imagination and the imaginary battles, meanwhile I was literally feeding the energy of the world-system that feeds the battles in the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that the mind-consciousness system and the world-system of money are equal and one, therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate Life Authority to Energy Authority throughout my entire Life, and to not have investigated the real roots and origins of this abdication and what the memories are that I am resonantly holding on to within myself, that I may identify these and release them through Self-Forgiveness, Self-Corrective application and thus live as Self-Perfection and stand as a Living Example of one who is Here, stable, equal and one with the physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the past is too complex to work through and understand and effectively apply self-forgiveness to and on, and therefore truly effectively apply self-corrective application

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the past and the starting point in my Life is unable to be investigated and remembered and then corrected in such a way that the change is actually lived out in a way that is verifiable and real. The change within Self-Forgiveness is real, and I will prove the extent to which it actually changes myself and the world as I commit myself and prove to myself I can apply and write Self-Forgiveness daily. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my money and resources to participate in the world-system that produced/produces action figures like the beast wars toys that I used that were the image and likeness that I had accepted and allowed as programs within and as me as the energy-obsessed mind-consciousness system that acted out the energy-obsession with participating in battle/energy within and as me, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the extent to which my behavior and my acceptances and allowances has directly fed the abusive mind-consciousness system and world-system of money, until Here no further

I realize that what I accept and allow within myself is thus accepted and allowed within the world-system, and I have more investigation to do into this

I realize that action figures and inner-imaginary battles with negative/neutral/positive energetic experiences are not best and must be corrected to what is best and supportive of all Life

I realize that I have wanted to get recognition and to feel special because my elaborate imagination that is really just a byproduct of the energy-obsession and abuse that I had accepted and allowed within myself

I realize that through my entire Life I had accepted and allowed the mind/energy-authority to reign supreme over the Life authority

I realize that by me writing Self-Forgiveness and living the Self-Corrective Application, this is the first time in my Life where I can stand in and as Life authority

I realize that the memories in my childhood of what I had accepted and allowed are necessary to reflect on and investigate

I realize that breath by breath in awareness and moment by moment being Here, that that is how I walk the Structural Resonance Alignment with my buddy and with the support of others walking this process

I realize that the extent of the brainwashing and programming from this world-system through action figures and imaginary battles is massive and intricate, yet we owe it to ourselves to work it out through Self-Forgiveness and to convert it to what is best for all Life through Self-corrective application

I realize that my inner acceptances and allowances from childhood are still playing out in my current accepted and allowed reality, and thus forgiving myself for accepting and allowing the imaginary battles is an important step in process and must be LIVED as self-correction now, in and as me living the principles and standing in and as Life, equal to and one with my mind-consciousness system and the current world-money system, where I as Life Authority will direct myself and the systems to what is best, in my Self-Honesty

I commit myself to Self-Honest Self-Reflection of every aspect of my Mind-Consciousness System to correct it to what is best for all Life

I commit myself to Life

I commit myself to awareness within and as my participation within my Mind-Consciousness System and the World-System as I am aware of the interconnectedness and the conflict/energy generation

I commit myself to understand how to best focus on transforming the conflict/energy generation to what is best for all Life that is supportive of all Life

I commit myself to understand what effective parenting of children looks like where the child is able to live in and as the principles of what is best for all Life

I commit myself to establish the network and resource distribution that ensures all needs are met for all of Life within the world

I commit myself to be willing to do whatever it takes that in Self-Honesty is best for all of Life

I commit myself to thoroughly re-write the very fabric of who I am so that in all ways and always I LIVE as what is best for all Life, as a living example

I commit myself to share DIP with people in a 1 on 1 way where they understand that it really matters and is the most important process one can do to really live Here as Life

Day 16 - One Day I Abdicated Responsibility

When I was a kid, my neighbor "Frank" (name changed for anonymity) would bike over and ring my doorbell. I hated it because I didn’t like him, I didn’t want to hang out with him, I just wanted to be alone and play video games or do whatever I wanted to do.

One day he rang the doorbell and I was in the other room. I told my brother to lie to him and say I wasn’t home.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear opening the door and talking with "Frank", as it would expose the weakness I had in social skills of directing the conversation to what is best, which may or may not have been playing together, the fact is I did not even open the door that day to direct the situation as Life authority and thus I abdicated responsibility and shifted to blame of others and excuses and justifications, within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed avoidance, excuse, blame and justifications to be resonant patterns within myself, completely avoiding Life that is Here, for the purpose of generating energy, completely accepting and allowing the abuse of Energy at the expense of Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see, investigate and apply thorough self-forgiveness and self-corrective application on the memories of my existence where I abdicated Life Authority to Energy Authority through avoidance, blame, excuse and justification, until here no further, as I trust myself and my Self-Forgiveness process and note-taking for future writing, and within this I AM directing myself breath by breath moment by moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to design and live out my days from the starting point of selfishness and self-interest only (energy authority), wanting to have my own schedule, my own timeline for everything, completely failing to take into account what is ACTUALLY best for all Life, which includes myself too, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed blindness and dishonesty within myself to understand what is actually best and supportive of All Life and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to have used Self-Honesty as my starting point in designing my days, my weeks and how I choose to direct myself moment by moment through my entire Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid situations that require discomfort and conflict, because clearly "Frank" wanted to do something where I wanted to do something else, in this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to avoid the situation and thus time loop for my entire Life until now, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to live as Courage and just Live and express myself and willingness to communicate, thus strengthen my resolve and direct myself to the necessary actions such as answering the door and directing the conversation in common sense

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to play the role of the victim, that "Frank" wanted something from me, and he was harassing me, when in reality I (as energy) was being a victim of myself by not realizing the power (and just giving away the power) that I have within me of Life and living words, which have the ability to direct myself and others in reality when properly used

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to give "Frank" my power as I allowed him to direct me, in this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have refused to direct myself and confront ANYTHING including the conversation with "Frank" and telling him directly that I did not want to play with him, or whatever the actual expression from me as Life would have been had I applied Self-Directive Principle

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I was superior to "Frank" in that time with him was not worth it, completely failing to investigate in Self-Honesty what was actually best for me to do and invest my time in, in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing Self-Dishonesty in my relationship with "Frank" and with everyone, because I have failed to decide and establish and LIVE my Principles which are the only legitimate starting point of and as Life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hide and to tell my brother Adam to lie to "Frank" and say that I was not home, which was an acceptance and allowance of breaking integrity and using words to lie, which clearly put Adam in a spot where he had to compromise his integrity and honesty and clearly pick sides between me or "Frank", which in this I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I was not leading by example to Adam, and I had set him up to fall in his integrity, and had failed to live as an example in how to navigate relationships from the starting point of Life and what is best for all Life and take full responsibility instead of using someone else to relay communications in a way that is clearly dishonest an not best which I NOW see/realize/understand is unacceptable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself rising to higher levels of the social-dominance hierarchy, by being assertive, stating what I want and not caring if it hurts other peoples’ ego

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take the actions that will prove to myself and others that I am in fact socially dominant as LIFE, doing what is best always and in all ways, in 100% self-honesty moment by moment and breath by breath, establishing and living the Best Social-Life within myself and others, no matter what others’ egos/mind-consciousness system says

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my Life Authority to Energy Authority by deciding to do what was comfortable in the moment and what gave me positive energy, which was avoidance of negative energy, which actually was the acceptance and allowance that held a resonant pattern in my Life of avoidance, excuse, blame, justification which manifests in ways of avoiding other people and avoiding negative emotions which I now refuse to accept and allow, as it IS unacceptable and unallowable to avoid, excuse, blame and justify… Life is the ONLY acceptable and allowable walk and starting point, and using common sense and guiding/supporting people to this will result from my living example and self-honesty and continued Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate responsibility of taking the necessary steps to resolve conflict, by going directly to the root of the ‘problem’ and address the pattern and to direct the pattern to what is best, as this is effective Living as Life and me as Life standing as a Living Example of what is best for all Life to the fullest extent possible

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that it IS best to face problems head on, even if there is temporary conflict, because the second and third order consequences may then actually be supportive of all of Life, instead of avoiding the problem, only to have the second and third order consequences be NOT best, because the starting point was clearly energy/ego, which had been accepted and allowed both directly and indirectly, TIL HERE NO FURTHER

I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see/realize/understand the second and third order consequences of me telling Adam to lie about not being home, avoiding "Frank", and using Adam as a mouthpiece for me to tell "Frank" the lie that I wasn’t home, and that these consequences have permeated into every aspect of my Life on a resonant level until now where I finally address them directly AS Life Authority, in Complete Self-Honest Self-Reflection and as the Self-Directive Principle as Life, through Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that I have been given a body/brain/physical substance as Life and that this Life may be utilized to interact and connect with other people in ways that are supportive of Life, so any abdication of this responsibility of my physical substance as Life is equal to me NOT actually taking responsibility in my receiving of Life, and is actually ABUSE of Life, manifested as me just living as an energy ego which will vanish when I die, where the entire point of actually Living is missed completely, which the point in Living is using the body I have been given as Life to GIVE as I want to receive, which is giving Life in ways that are best and supportive of all Life, which may be uncomfortable and feel negative at times, but that negative/positive feeling/emotion is literally irrelevant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that my emotions/energy and how I feel is completely irrelevant to what is best for all Life, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to make the common sense conclusion that as I direct myself in Self-Honesty to doing what is best for all Life, and as we establish the world and the world systems in a way that is best for all Life, there will be plenty of positive feelings/emotions in that process, which are just a natural second order consequence of doing what is best, so focusing on the feelings/emotions is ONLY a distraction. Focus and Direct Oneself to what is best and the Living Principles. The feelings/emotions are irrelevant and they will follow nonetheless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to understand the excuses within the starting point of energy-authority that I had used for not doing things and not directing myself, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify and blame others, when in reality this was energy-authority running rampant in my Life as an abusive pattern that must be stopped FULLY

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is not possible to fully stop the energy authority of my Life, failing to see the obvious common sense that it IS in fact possible to stop the energy authority that I had accepted and allowed - that it can be fully stopped through Self-Honest Self Reflection, through Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application done in complete Self-Honesty in and as the Self-Directive Principle, day after day after day until the visible proof is Here for myself and all to see

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I was less than "Frank" because I avoided him and saw him as a source of authority and I was afraid of him telling me what to do and me consenting with what he wanted to do, in this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to LIVE from the starting point of ABSOLUTE DIRECTIVE PRINCIPLE of LIFE, using common sense and an openness to participate in Life with Life in ways that are supportive of all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand common sense in approaching my relationships, how I direct myself and what I do on a daily basis, breath by breath, 1+1, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because of past mistakes, I am not worthy of forgiveness, which is not true, as I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the lie that I am only ego/energy and not Life, as Life is Here, and I will continue to prove and establish this within my Living Example of doing what is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the LIFE that has always been here, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the pre-programming of the energy-mind-consciousness-system to exist and feed off of the Life that is ME in my physical body, Til Here No Further

When and as I notice avoidance, excuse, justification, blame and evidence of energy-authority in my Life and the lives of others, I stop and I breathe

I realize that I correct myself first

I realize that I establish myself as a Living example

I realize that avoidance, excuse, justification, blame and energy-authority are not best for all Life because it is the acceptance and allowance energy to exist at the expense of Life

I realize that I trust myself to direct myself in moments, breath by breath to do what is best, by being Here, trusting my starting point and my Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Applicaiton, which involves actually Living, being open to falling and getting back up thus proving to myself the living example

I realize that REAL LIVING is HERE, breath by breath, within writing AND within fully living in the world-system from Self-Directive principle

I realize that the real social-Life is LIFE based in principle, and that by my continued Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application, I will dissolve and transform the entire social-dominance hierarchy of the world to Social-Life, actings always and in all ways to what is best for all Life

I realize that every breath matters, 1+1+1

I realize that Life-Authority is ME, and I am 100% teachable, open, willing to learn and accept change to be tested on this point of living as Life-Authority FULLY

I realize Life is Here

Therefore I commit myself to stand as a Living Example - Directing myself in any and every situation to what is best, using Common Sense and Principles as my starting point

I commit myself to direct myself to the best first-order consequences that guarantee the best second and third order consequences, so on and so forth, and I commit myself to Self-Honest Self-Reflection and Willingness for Feedback and Willingness to Change based on the feedback I receive and investigate and apply

I commit myself to full Self-Perfection always and in all ways

I commit myself to prove to myself and show myself that I am Living as the Self-Directive Principle as Life-Authority, establishing Social-Life in ways that are best for all Life

I commit myself to eliminate and rewrite any and every aspect of my mind-consciousness system from any way that is not best, to only what is best for all Life

Day 15 - Rejection of Ego

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that the experience of fearing rejection, and rejection itself is a gift because it can make me - as Life - stronger as I see that throughout this Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application Journey that I am able to be all powerful as Life when I stand equal to and one with Life/Physicality, therefore any rejection and fear of rejection I know is clearly just ego/energy and thus the energetic/conflict reaction within me that I have labeled 'fear of rejection' is a gift/opportunity for me to apply my Self-Corrective Application even more effectively and stand more robustly and fully as Life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to live as Self-Interest through me not speaking up throughout my past and to have directed myself to do what is actually best, through Self-Honest Self-Reflection,Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that by me just being a passive observer, not willing to walk out of my comfort zone, that I was accepting and allowing myself to not be here in Self-Responsibility and Self-Directive Principle, actually living my principles and supporting myself and all of Life, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to interact, speak up, and support Life by stepping out of my "comfort zone", where I would actually step up and face the fear of rejection and walk through it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bullshit myself and make excuses and justifications for why I do not do certain things that involve facing rejection when in my self-honesty I know it is just me as Self-Directive Principle abdicating responsibility for the energy-authority aka ego, which has been me accepting and allowing the abuse of the ego/energy authority... Til Here No Further

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that fear of rejection is equal to the ego/energy authority that exists in relationship to the social dominance hierarchy system, and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to stand equal to and one with Life, being the Life authority which need no social dominance hierarchy, rather an equal system of Life utilizing Life-Awareness to bring Life-Awareness to Life in oneness and equality, being Here as breath as the solution to the social dominance hierarchy and other ego-energy systems in which rejection and fear of rejection exist, which the solution of Life may be implemented through the Self-Directive Principle and Self-Corrective Application, walked daily, breath by breath in complete and brutal self-honesty, with willingness to face and confront any and every fear until we all stand equally and one as Life Ah... very good
I realize that humans are social creatures, and it is best to actually be social, from the starting point of Life, therefore there is no fear of rejection needed, rather rejection may be redefined to the situation where Life within self and others must be directed even more creatively

I realize that fear of rejection is fear of loss and fear of discomfort, which is just the abdication of Life authority for energy authority

I realize that it can be fun and easy to communicate with others and through my Self-Directive Principle it does not even matter if I feel good or bad, what truly matters is the expression of Life from me, from the starting point of oneness and equality

I realize that all humans are Life deep down, and we are equal in that we are all Life, therefore the social dominance hierarchy need not exist and I can delete this system of social dominance hierarchy through my own process of Self-Forgiveness, Self-Corrective Application and Self-Directive Principle daily applied breath by breath and by my standing equal to and one with Life

I realize that it is best for all Life for me to communicate what I need to communicate in my self-honesty and to participate in groups, as me facing and deleting any and every fear and mind-construct that that is not best for all Life, and that any indication of fear of rejection is really just a reminder that Life in Self and others must be even more creatively expressed in oneness and equality, and the experience of rejection is a learning opportunity to be an even more effective human
I realize that fear of rejection is just the abdicating responsibility of Life authority to energy authority, TIL HERE NO FURTHER
Therefore.... I commit myself to prove to myself that I am Life and Life cannot be rejected by Life, Life is just expressed in a multitude of ways

I commit myself to the best expression of Life within and without I commit myself to Self-Honest Self-Reflection and Self-Corrective Application to become and live, verifiably, as Life and what is best for all Life, always and in all ways
I commit myself to dissolve the social dominance hierarchy into the social-Life of Life, through me walking process and standing as a living example of Life equality and oneness, always and in all ways

I commit myself to show myself that only the ego will reject Life, therefore as one who stands equal to and one with Life, I will face rejection from egos and this will enable the antifragility of Life

I commit myself to speak up, share myself as Life, and continue walking process until everyone is Here in equality and oneness with and as Life

Day 14 - Observations of Making Love Real

Making Love Real (if you read this, read this out loud)

For reference - here is the principle as stated on the Declaration of Living Principles from the Desteni Website

The Principle of Making Love Real

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Nurturing and honouring the utmost potential in every individual (including myself) wherein love is not a feeling or emotions, but an action that is lived by doing whatever is necessary to support without compromising myself or the other - without fear of "losing" the relationship or the feelings associated to love, and without accepting or allowing less than my own or my partner's utmost potential.

As I observe my past and what I have accepted and allowed myself to become, I realize I have been consumed by the energy of love, wanting to have more love, wanting to not lose love.

I realize I have completely abdicated my responsibility and my worthiness of and as Life through my acceptances and allowances of a faulty definition of love. The realizations I have found have supported me massively to understand and actually stand as Life, as and for what is best, which I continually will prove to myself day after day in complete and brutal self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that I have not been making love real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have been making decisions from the energy of not wanting to lose energy, rather than using self-directive principle of doing what is best in all ways, to honor life, to make love real, and to visibly live the principles of self-forgiveness, self-awareness, self-honesty and self-trust, to actually establish myself in oneness and equality with Life here in the Physical

I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing anything less than my ultimate potential, and that ultimate potential in others, as I have been abdicating my directive principle to being based in energy, instead of the operating from the Self-Directive Principle of doing what is best, no matter what the emotions/feelings/conflict/reaction are within myself and others

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to do what is best always and in all ways, believing that I cannot actually trust myself and direct myself and others, that I have accepted and allowed the god of energy to run myself, rather than me standing up and taking 100% responsibility to do ONLY what is best, always and in all ways, to make love real, and to visibly live every single Desteni Principle even if it causes emotional conflict and reaction in others, as the mind-consciousness system/ego will react to the Truth that is inherent in the message of Desteni, common sense and doing what is best for ALL, always and in all ways, the ultimate act of eradicating ego and living from Self-Directive Principle, visibly, honestly, thoroughly, completely, always and in all ways, equal to and one with Life forevermore

When and as I notice energy possessions within myself and others, I stop and I breathe

I realize than energy is temporary, yet the physical is forever

When and as I notice myself not living the principle of making love real, meaning that I am accepting and allowing anything less than my own or my partners’ utmost potential, I stop and I breathe

I realize that through brutal self-honesty and consistent self-corrective application, only then am I able to stand as Life and direct myself and other to what is best for all Life, and that there will be moments where I still do not do what is best, but I know and trust and have proved to myself that I am headed to what is best through my journey and through my buddy support, and through my brutal self-honesty, so it is actually best for me to stand and direct myself and others in my self-honesty and my self-trust, doing the best I can possibly do, as this is the effective walking of my process, point by point, breath by breath

I realize that energy possessions are not best
I realize that love is easily mistaken as an energy possession, but this is not real love, as love is not an energy possession, it is a practical living support of ones self and others, to not accept and allow anything less than ones' highest potential
I realize that I accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that I was not making love real, because I was accepting and allowing what is and was less than my own and my partners utmost potential, which I realize is now able to be understood and walked because I am now aware of the Desteni Principles and I have made the Self-Directive decision to Live the Principles, always and in all ways

I realize that I do not need the feeling of love

I realize that partnership agreements are here for support for each other to walk process and live as their best expression and support in their self-perfection, and in turn to assist and support each other in their self-honesty, self-awareness and self-creation

I realize that if others go into emotional conflict and turmoil and even panic and anxiety, that I can breathe, I can assist and support them, and that sometimes this means the situation will not be immediately resolved and that is okay because I trust myself to live as integrity, so whether the situation can be resolved now, soon or way further in the future, I will live and stand as the Directive Principle of Self and Life, therefore there is no need for my ego to come in and take revenge and try to control/manipulate/use the situation for gaining energy or experiencing fear of loss, as I can just breathe, and apply self-forgiveness and self-corrective application to neutralize the points and to stand as a Living example of doing what is best for all Life, always and in all ways

I realize that even if my ego takes revenge, that I will direct these points through my consistent commitment to my process, to direct any and all points to what is best, and I will prove to myself that I can and will stand equal to and one with all Life

I realize I am worthy of trust, as long as I am breathing and daily walking process in self-honesty and self-awareness

I realize I am able to be honest with myself and it is easy to do this as I write out these memories, as I am really beginning to understand and establish myself in stability, not fearing looking at these memories and what will come from them, rather digging through these memories to the root memories, and finding the gifts and reclaiming myself as Life, taking responsibility of myself as Life, as I direct myself through all of the dimensions and timelines in myself and my mind-consciousness system, one point and one breath at a time

I realize that I am becoming more effective at self-forgiveness and my words are living and breathing and this is powerful as I am establishing myself here as the physical and my Life, and thus all Lives can and will be benefitting from this process I am walking, it will just take time, breath and being gentle with myself, yet using self-honesty and self-trust to confirm to myself and prove to myself that I am Visibly and Actually Living all of the Principles

Therefore

I commit myself to visibly living the Desteni Principles I commit myself to prove to myself that I can and will make love real
I commit myself to investigate any and all memories, prioritizing the strongest emotionally charged memories as it is best and most effective to go toward the root memories as these, once released, create shifts in my life which allow me to support myself and others and to most effectively walk process

I commit myself to my utmost potential

I commit myself to the self-directive principle, and to neutralize the ego/energy/mind-consciousness system within and the world-system without, to purify these that I as my being/self/physical am a creator of a world and a world-system that is actually best for all Life, always and in all ways…. this is my commitment to my Self

Day 13 - Real Abundance

There is an abundance of food, water, resources, oxygen and humans.

But this abundance does not reach everyone equally, not yet...

As one who has experienced and received abundance of resources in my life, it is my responsibility to give as I receive, that we may all share in the abundance.

This is simple, yet I've never done proper writing on this topic, until now....

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to align myself in thought, word, deed and action, on a conscious, subconscious and unconscious level, to the effective and perfect distribution of the abundance of Life's resources so that all may be equally shared and distributed with all of Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my self-interest to be my starting point, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have abdicated the responsibility I have to my fellow humans and Life, as we together ARE Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to establish the proper network to facilitate the effective and equal distribution of Life's resources to all of Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that little habits of self-interest only had compounded throughout my Life, which brought me to Here, where I now realize that even with my good intentions, I am just as evil as the system because I have not taken the necessary steps to change the system so that it redistribute all of Life's resources equally

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that charity and donations are sufficient and that I have felt good about the energy of knowing I was 'giving' and 'tithing' when in reality billions suffer every single day, no matter how much I give to charity, because the giving is really an abdication of responsibility on my part, "throwing money" at the problem, instead of investigating what is necessary, and then taking the necessary steps as a group to establish the real fundamental and permanent change in the system required to distribute all of Life's resources equally so ALL may experience and know and PROVE that they know the abundance of Life forevermore

When and as I notice myself being self-interested and acting in ways that choke off the abundance of Life for all, I stop and I breathe

I realize through my breath (which is a gift of abundance of oxygen from Life) I am reminded of the giving nature of Life

I realize that Life is for giving

I realizing that Life as me is walking the self-forgiveness process, which when done in complete Self-Honesty and Self-Awareness, will allow for Self-Direction to true Self-Perfection and Self-Creation which in turn establish Life on Earth as we have never seen before, Life where the abundance of Life is equally distributed on all levels

I realize that I am completely capable of doing this, provided I walk my process daily with Self-Forgiveness, Self-Corrective Application, and supporting the group of individuals who are all in alignment in principle of doing what is best for all Life

Therefore, I commit myself to prove to myself that I am Life-giving, where I can honestly say in my final breath of Life that I honestly gave my best of myself, to establishing the equal distribution of the abundance of Life here.

I commit myself to prove to myself I can act in ways that are Life-giving and generous in the most systematic and real way ever, where others may verify my effectiveness, through real tangible results in this physical world, where resources are equally and effectively distributed

I commit myself to stand for the abundance of Life and Life's resources

I commit myself to remind others that are actively choking off Life's resources, that they have been given Life, and should they waste it, they will not receive more of Life

I commit myself to remind others who are choking off Life's resources there is consequence which will be paid for

I commit myself to remind others that we have been hijacked by the mind-consciousness system which is the ego/self-interest program that is choking off Life's resources, and this proper correction requires effective Self-Corrective Application to see the nature of what we've accepted and allowed ourselves to become

I commit myself to live the word abundance and stand as a living example of what abundance looks like, an abundance for us ALL, not a select few

I commit myself to connect with and understand supply chain logistics and distribution, so we may purify this world-system of money into a world-system that gives Life and Life's resources equally and abundantly to all

We can do this together. Connect with me and share your unique role and together we can cross-pollinate our networks. This takes us all together working together, let's distribute this abundance once and for all.

Day 12 - Too Much For Me? No. Just Add Self-Honesty.

Sometimes I wonder if I do too much. 

Sometimes I wonder I am not doing enough.

I am clearly not clear if I am doing too much or too little because I don't even know the answer in my Self-Honesty.

Perhaps this is just my mind/ego thinking that there is a way to 'know' if you are doing too much.

By doing too much, I specifically mean, the amount of actions and activity I do every day to accomplish my goals and keep walking my process, I have many things I want to do, at least 10 things every day. 

Some days I complete all 10 and I feel good, like I am worthy of a reward (outside of just the reward of knowing I am living in integrity) because I accomplished my goals, I even feel superior because I know I am more productive than others (but then I also feel inferior because I know others are 'doing more' than me).

Other days I get overwhelmed and there is emotion that says 'Just stop' and do not move on. Just take a break. Sometimes I listen to that voice sometimes I don't.

THIS is the real issue. 

The issue is that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to really understand and LIVE as the Self-Directive Principle, and man I have beat myself up about this...

I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see my Life with Self-Honesty and what I do on a daily basis, overcomplicating it.... until now...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see what Self-Honesty looks like in my day-to-day application of walking process and accomplishing my goals

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to operate from emotion and the energy of wanting to do more or less, not realizing that operating from that energy will fluctuate, and this is not the best way to organize my life and operate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have compared myself with others in my daily output, feeling superior to others, inferior to others, not realizing the simplicity of Life that we all have our role to play in creating Heaven on Earth, so the only 'comparison' that is worthy of making, is me in my Self-Honesty looking at what I am doing to what I realistically can do, in the most sustainable and optimal way, as this is a Life-Long Journey.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be arbitrary in what it means to 'win' and have a successful and productive day, and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be arbitrary and not clearly define what is the 'sweet spot' versus 'too much' versus 'not enough' with how much I decide to 'do' and focus on 'completing' during any given day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to clearly have established my starting point of Life and my Chief Aim, to the point where this is the only focus I have when I work, where I am close, but have not yet established it perfectly

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to have supported myself in establishing and creating my to-do list and my inner operating system on a conscious, subconscious and unconscious level in a way that is supportive of myself always and in all ways, and equally supportive of all Life, always and in all ways

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have this never-ending to-do list that is unclear in specifically what is required that will support myself and Life to creating a world that is best, and in this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to have the discernment, wisdom, authority and Self-Directiveness to confidently remove and eliminate everything that is not required and just a waste of time and energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that really my to-do list has had the starting point of me wanting to get more money to secure my survival, and to satisfy my need for sex, because if I am productive and can make money, I will be able to provide for my future family, wife, kids thus guaranteeing safety, security, sex, and the other basics of Life for my self alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have supported myself to realize that my to-do list can in fact be supportive of what is best for all Life and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see (until now) that my starting point CAN ACTUALLY BE LIFE and what is best for all Life, just realizing that it is a process that I walk daily with writing, using TT and connecting with and supporting others

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to look at my to-do list with fresh eyes, from the Self-Directive Principle that guides me to doing what is actually best in alignment with my goals

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel dread and overwhelm (and like it is too much) with and AS my to-do list (as my to-do list is really an extension of me, but it has accumulated self-dishonesty within it, thus I have the experiences of uncertainty, lacking clarity and feelings like dread) instead of just writing in out, so here we go...

When and as I notice the thoughts/feelings/emotions/backchat and overall 'energy' of 'too much' in my conscious mind thoughts, in my subconscious mind characters, and in my unconscious mind behavioral patterns, I stop and I breathe

I realize that breath is the stabilizing force that will support me as I re-write and refine and purify my 'to-do' list and my Life

I realize that through this self-corrective application that is happening here and now, I AM in fact purifying my to-do list, my inner operating system (consciously, subconsciously and unconsciously).

I realize I am purifying my starting point and WHO I AM in my location point within this world-system and Life, and I am actually moving myself to creating a world that is best for all Life as I am purifying my mind-consciousness system within (through self-forgiveness of this 'too much' conflict that is occurring consciously, subconsciously and unconsciously)

I realize that this writing itself is supportive of all Life, and I know this in my Self-Honesty because I notice the discharging of energy and the stabilization that comes from these statements, the writing, the Self-Trust building through my Self-Honesty in this Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application

I realize that I will in fact prove to myself that this Self-Corrective Application works

I realize that that feeling of proving to myself that this Self-Corrective Application works is a very good 'positive' feeling, so I realize that this is worthy of future investigation, yet I trust myself that I will write this out in the days to come, in my newly purified and established to-do list that is a result of me writing this Self-Forgiveness and actually applying myself and my Self-Correction through Self-Honesty and Self-Awareness throughout my day today and all days forth

I realize that my Self-Directive Principle is in fact developing and this is supportive to my Self-Trust and Self-Honesty

I realize that whenever I am in doubt or in trouble and feeling overwhelmed, I always have the tools of breath and Self-Forgiveness, and the power of the group within TechnoTutor users and the Self-Perfected group that I can reach out to for support

I realize that I have the support of others walking process so we can keep each other in check and ask for support so we can really leverage the mastermind and group dynamics as we walk this journey to Life, as Life, for Life

I realize that my to-do list can in fact be my best friend and IT IS OKAY if there is tons of information on there, because I trust myself to use my calendar, my daily check list and my Self-Honesty to guide me through and live my Destiny

I realize that clarifying my Chief Aim has been CRITICAL to me even being able to process what an effective to-do list is, because it serves as a filter for what is actually best and what is not best

I realize that Self-Honesty is an asset for Life

I realize it is counterintuitive (currently seems counterintuitive to me), that by me using time to write out my mind and write self-forgiveness, that this actually allows me to make progress in my real journey in Life that actually matters, that actually leads to me expanding my network, supporting others to walk their process and establish the basic needs required, food, water, clothing, housing, education, living income and community

I realize that Life is actually simple, the mind is complicated

I commit myself to show myself and prove to myself that Life is in fact simple, that I am here to support myself in walking process, distributing and supporting others with TT, and I am here to support all Life to establish their basic human needs to be guaranteed, food, water, clothing, housing, education, living income and community

I commit myself to show myself that it is easy to connect with the right people that are working on bringing Heaven to Earth (meaning that all humans have their needs met)

I commit myself to show others that Life is in fact simple

I commit myself to cross-pollinate my network even more effectively and with Self-Honesty and with Self-Trust so that we can expedite this process of alleviating suffering in the world and actually ensuring Heaven on Earth

I commit myself to support my TechnoTutor network so we can get this elite level of education to all, and build our collective vocabulary so we can articulate and create Heaven on Earth for All

I commit myself to refine my to-do list so it is all supportive of my Self-Honesty and my Self-Directive Principle to doing what is best always and in all ways

I commit myself to breathe when and as I work, from phone calls to laptop work to writing to taking a break, to listening to content, to anything I do in my daily activities, knowing that my breath will stabilize me and others 

I commit myself to know that in my Self-Honesty, I am not doing too much, provided that every day I keep focused on the basics - Writing, TT, and connecting with others/supporting others to establish and confirm and guarantee their needs are met

This is good, this will be a process, this is what Life is about, now I have Self-Honesty and trust in my process of writing, TT and connecting with others. 

It is that simple, this is Life, and Life is Here.