When I was a kid, my neighbor "Frank" (name changed for anonymity) would bike over and ring my doorbell. I hated it because I didn’t like him, I didn’t want to hang out with him, I just wanted to be alone and play video games or do whatever I wanted to do.
One day he rang the doorbell and I was in the other room. I told my brother to lie to him and say I wasn’t home.
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear opening the door and talking with "Frank", as it would expose the weakness I had in social skills of directing the conversation to what is best, which may or may not have been playing together, the fact is I did not even open the door that day to direct the situation as Life authority and thus I abdicated responsibility and shifted to blame of others and excuses and justifications, within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed avoidance, excuse, blame and justifications to be resonant patterns within myself, completely avoiding Life that is Here, for the purpose of generating energy, completely accepting and allowing the abuse of Energy at the expense of Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see, investigate and apply thorough self-forgiveness and self-corrective application on the memories of my existence where I abdicated Life Authority to Energy Authority through avoidance, blame, excuse and justification, until here no further, as I trust myself and my Self-Forgiveness process and note-taking for future writing, and within this I AM directing myself breath by breath moment by moment
One day he rang the doorbell and I was in the other room. I told my brother to lie to him and say I wasn’t home.
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear opening the door and talking with "Frank", as it would expose the weakness I had in social skills of directing the conversation to what is best, which may or may not have been playing together, the fact is I did not even open the door that day to direct the situation as Life authority and thus I abdicated responsibility and shifted to blame of others and excuses and justifications, within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed avoidance, excuse, blame and justifications to be resonant patterns within myself, completely avoiding Life that is Here, for the purpose of generating energy, completely accepting and allowing the abuse of Energy at the expense of Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see, investigate and apply thorough self-forgiveness and self-corrective application on the memories of my existence where I abdicated Life Authority to Energy Authority through avoidance, blame, excuse and justification, until here no further, as I trust myself and my Self-Forgiveness process and note-taking for future writing, and within this I AM directing myself breath by breath moment by moment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to design and live out my days from the starting point of selfishness and self-interest only (energy authority), wanting to have my own schedule, my own timeline for everything, completely failing to take into account what is ACTUALLY best for all Life, which includes myself too, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed blindness and dishonesty within myself to understand what is actually best and supportive of All Life and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to have used Self-Honesty as my starting point in designing my days, my weeks and how I choose to direct myself moment by moment through my entire Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid situations that require discomfort and conflict, because clearly "Frank" wanted to do something where I wanted to do something else, in this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to avoid the situation and thus time loop for my entire Life until now, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to live as Courage and just Live and express myself and willingness to communicate, thus strengthen my resolve and direct myself to the necessary actions such as answering the door and directing the conversation in common sense
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to play the role of the victim, that "Frank" wanted something from me, and he was harassing me, when in reality I (as energy) was being a victim of myself by not realizing the power (and just giving away the power) that I have within me of Life and living words, which have the ability to direct myself and others in reality when properly used
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to give "Frank" my power as I allowed him to direct me, in this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have refused to direct myself and confront ANYTHING including the conversation with "Frank" and telling him directly that I did not want to play with him, or whatever the actual expression from me as Life would have been had I applied Self-Directive Principle
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid situations that require discomfort and conflict, because clearly "Frank" wanted to do something where I wanted to do something else, in this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to avoid the situation and thus time loop for my entire Life until now, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to live as Courage and just Live and express myself and willingness to communicate, thus strengthen my resolve and direct myself to the necessary actions such as answering the door and directing the conversation in common sense
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to play the role of the victim, that "Frank" wanted something from me, and he was harassing me, when in reality I (as energy) was being a victim of myself by not realizing the power (and just giving away the power) that I have within me of Life and living words, which have the ability to direct myself and others in reality when properly used
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to give "Frank" my power as I allowed him to direct me, in this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have refused to direct myself and confront ANYTHING including the conversation with "Frank" and telling him directly that I did not want to play with him, or whatever the actual expression from me as Life would have been had I applied Self-Directive Principle
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I was superior to "Frank" in that time with him was not worth it, completely failing to investigate in Self-Honesty what was actually best for me to do and invest my time in, in this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing Self-Dishonesty in my relationship with "Frank" and with everyone, because I have failed to decide and establish and LIVE my Principles which are the only legitimate starting point of and as Life
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hide and to tell my brother Adam to lie to "Frank" and say that I was not home, which was an acceptance and allowance of breaking integrity and using words to lie, which clearly put Adam in a spot where he had to compromise his integrity and honesty and clearly pick sides between me or "Frank", which in this I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I was not leading by example to Adam, and I had set him up to fall in his integrity, and had failed to live as an example in how to navigate relationships from the starting point of Life and what is best for all Life and take full responsibility instead of using someone else to relay communications in a way that is clearly dishonest an not best which I NOW see/realize/understand is unacceptable
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself rising to higher levels of the social-dominance hierarchy, by being assertive, stating what I want and not caring if it hurts other peoples’ ego
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take the actions that will prove to myself and others that I am in fact socially dominant as LIFE, doing what is best always and in all ways, in 100% self-honesty moment by moment and breath by breath, establishing and living the Best Social-Life within myself and others, no matter what others’ egos/mind-consciousness system says
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my Life Authority to Energy Authority by deciding to do what was comfortable in the moment and what gave me positive energy, which was avoidance of negative energy, which actually was the acceptance and allowance that held a resonant pattern in my Life of avoidance, excuse, blame, justification which manifests in ways of avoiding other people and avoiding negative emotions which I now refuse to accept and allow, as it IS unacceptable and unallowable to avoid, excuse, blame and justify… Life is the ONLY acceptable and allowable walk and starting point, and using common sense and guiding/supporting people to this will result from my living example and self-honesty and continued Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate responsibility of taking the necessary steps to resolve conflict, by going directly to the root of the ‘problem’ and address the pattern and to direct the pattern to what is best, as this is effective Living as Life and me as Life standing as a Living Example of what is best for all Life to the fullest extent possible
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that it IS best to face problems head on, even if there is temporary conflict, because the second and third order consequences may then actually be supportive of all of Life, instead of avoiding the problem, only to have the second and third order consequences be NOT best, because the starting point was clearly energy/ego, which had been accepted and allowed both directly and indirectly, TIL HERE NO FURTHER
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see/realize/understand the second and third order consequences of me telling Adam to lie about not being home, avoiding "Frank", and using Adam as a mouthpiece for me to tell "Frank" the lie that I wasn’t home, and that these consequences have permeated into every aspect of my Life on a resonant level until now where I finally address them directly AS Life Authority, in Complete Self-Honest Self-Reflection and as the Self-Directive Principle as Life, through Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that I have been given a body/brain/physical substance as Life and that this Life may be utilized to interact and connect with other people in ways that are supportive of Life, so any abdication of this responsibility of my physical substance as Life is equal to me NOT actually taking responsibility in my receiving of Life, and is actually ABUSE of Life, manifested as me just living as an energy ego which will vanish when I die, where the entire point of actually Living is missed completely, which the point in Living is using the body I have been given as Life to GIVE as I want to receive, which is giving Life in ways that are best and supportive of all Life, which may be uncomfortable and feel negative at times, but that negative/positive feeling/emotion is literally irrelevant
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that my emotions/energy and how I feel is completely irrelevant to what is best for all Life, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to make the common sense conclusion that as I direct myself in Self-Honesty to doing what is best for all Life, and as we establish the world and the world systems in a way that is best for all Life, there will be plenty of positive feelings/emotions in that process, which are just a natural second order consequence of doing what is best, so focusing on the feelings/emotions is ONLY a distraction. Focus and Direct Oneself to what is best and the Living Principles. The feelings/emotions are irrelevant and they will follow nonetheless.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to understand the excuses within the starting point of energy-authority that I had used for not doing things and not directing myself, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify and blame others, when in reality this was energy-authority running rampant in my Life as an abusive pattern that must be stopped FULLY
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is not possible to fully stop the energy authority of my Life, failing to see the obvious common sense that it IS in fact possible to stop the energy authority that I had accepted and allowed - that it can be fully stopped through Self-Honest Self Reflection, through Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application done in complete Self-Honesty in and as the Self-Directive Principle, day after day after day until the visible proof is Here for myself and all to see
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I was less than "Frank" because I avoided him and saw him as a source of authority and I was afraid of him telling me what to do and me consenting with what he wanted to do, in this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to LIVE from the starting point of ABSOLUTE DIRECTIVE PRINCIPLE of LIFE, using common sense and an openness to participate in Life with Life in ways that are supportive of all Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand common sense in approaching my relationships, how I direct myself and what I do on a daily basis, breath by breath, 1+1, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because of past mistakes, I am not worthy of forgiveness, which is not true, as I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the lie that I am only ego/energy and not Life, as Life is Here, and I will continue to prove and establish this within my Living Example of doing what is best for all Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the LIFE that has always been here, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the pre-programming of the energy-mind-consciousness-system to exist and feed off of the Life that is ME in my physical body, Til Here No Further
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hide and to tell my brother Adam to lie to "Frank" and say that I was not home, which was an acceptance and allowance of breaking integrity and using words to lie, which clearly put Adam in a spot where he had to compromise his integrity and honesty and clearly pick sides between me or "Frank", which in this I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I was not leading by example to Adam, and I had set him up to fall in his integrity, and had failed to live as an example in how to navigate relationships from the starting point of Life and what is best for all Life and take full responsibility instead of using someone else to relay communications in a way that is clearly dishonest an not best which I NOW see/realize/understand is unacceptable
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself rising to higher levels of the social-dominance hierarchy, by being assertive, stating what I want and not caring if it hurts other peoples’ ego
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take the actions that will prove to myself and others that I am in fact socially dominant as LIFE, doing what is best always and in all ways, in 100% self-honesty moment by moment and breath by breath, establishing and living the Best Social-Life within myself and others, no matter what others’ egos/mind-consciousness system says
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my Life Authority to Energy Authority by deciding to do what was comfortable in the moment and what gave me positive energy, which was avoidance of negative energy, which actually was the acceptance and allowance that held a resonant pattern in my Life of avoidance, excuse, blame, justification which manifests in ways of avoiding other people and avoiding negative emotions which I now refuse to accept and allow, as it IS unacceptable and unallowable to avoid, excuse, blame and justify… Life is the ONLY acceptable and allowable walk and starting point, and using common sense and guiding/supporting people to this will result from my living example and self-honesty and continued Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate responsibility of taking the necessary steps to resolve conflict, by going directly to the root of the ‘problem’ and address the pattern and to direct the pattern to what is best, as this is effective Living as Life and me as Life standing as a Living Example of what is best for all Life to the fullest extent possible
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that it IS best to face problems head on, even if there is temporary conflict, because the second and third order consequences may then actually be supportive of all of Life, instead of avoiding the problem, only to have the second and third order consequences be NOT best, because the starting point was clearly energy/ego, which had been accepted and allowed both directly and indirectly, TIL HERE NO FURTHER
I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see/realize/understand the second and third order consequences of me telling Adam to lie about not being home, avoiding "Frank", and using Adam as a mouthpiece for me to tell "Frank" the lie that I wasn’t home, and that these consequences have permeated into every aspect of my Life on a resonant level until now where I finally address them directly AS Life Authority, in Complete Self-Honest Self-Reflection and as the Self-Directive Principle as Life, through Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that I have been given a body/brain/physical substance as Life and that this Life may be utilized to interact and connect with other people in ways that are supportive of Life, so any abdication of this responsibility of my physical substance as Life is equal to me NOT actually taking responsibility in my receiving of Life, and is actually ABUSE of Life, manifested as me just living as an energy ego which will vanish when I die, where the entire point of actually Living is missed completely, which the point in Living is using the body I have been given as Life to GIVE as I want to receive, which is giving Life in ways that are best and supportive of all Life, which may be uncomfortable and feel negative at times, but that negative/positive feeling/emotion is literally irrelevant
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that my emotions/energy and how I feel is completely irrelevant to what is best for all Life, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to make the common sense conclusion that as I direct myself in Self-Honesty to doing what is best for all Life, and as we establish the world and the world systems in a way that is best for all Life, there will be plenty of positive feelings/emotions in that process, which are just a natural second order consequence of doing what is best, so focusing on the feelings/emotions is ONLY a distraction. Focus and Direct Oneself to what is best and the Living Principles. The feelings/emotions are irrelevant and they will follow nonetheless.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to understand the excuses within the starting point of energy-authority that I had used for not doing things and not directing myself, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify and blame others, when in reality this was energy-authority running rampant in my Life as an abusive pattern that must be stopped FULLY
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is not possible to fully stop the energy authority of my Life, failing to see the obvious common sense that it IS in fact possible to stop the energy authority that I had accepted and allowed - that it can be fully stopped through Self-Honest Self Reflection, through Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application done in complete Self-Honesty in and as the Self-Directive Principle, day after day after day until the visible proof is Here for myself and all to see
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I was less than "Frank" because I avoided him and saw him as a source of authority and I was afraid of him telling me what to do and me consenting with what he wanted to do, in this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to LIVE from the starting point of ABSOLUTE DIRECTIVE PRINCIPLE of LIFE, using common sense and an openness to participate in Life with Life in ways that are supportive of all Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand common sense in approaching my relationships, how I direct myself and what I do on a daily basis, breath by breath, 1+1, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because of past mistakes, I am not worthy of forgiveness, which is not true, as I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the lie that I am only ego/energy and not Life, as Life is Here, and I will continue to prove and establish this within my Living Example of doing what is best for all Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the LIFE that has always been here, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the pre-programming of the energy-mind-consciousness-system to exist and feed off of the Life that is ME in my physical body, Til Here No Further
When and as I notice avoidance, excuse, justification, blame and evidence of energy-authority in my Life and the lives of others, I stop and I breathe
I realize that I correct myself first
I realize that I establish myself as a Living example
I realize that avoidance, excuse, justification, blame and energy-authority are not best for all Life because it is the acceptance and allowance energy to exist at the expense of Life
I realize that I correct myself first
I realize that I establish myself as a Living example
I realize that avoidance, excuse, justification, blame and energy-authority are not best for all Life because it is the acceptance and allowance energy to exist at the expense of Life
I realize that I trust myself to direct myself in moments, breath by breath to do what is best, by being Here, trusting my starting point and my Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Applicaiton, which involves actually Living, being open to falling and getting back up thus proving to myself the living example
I realize that REAL LIVING is HERE, breath by breath, within writing AND within fully living in the world-system from Self-Directive principle
I realize that the real social-Life is LIFE based in principle, and that by my continued Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application, I will dissolve and transform the entire social-dominance hierarchy of the world to Social-Life, actings always and in all ways to what is best for all Life
I realize that every breath matters, 1+1+1
I realize that Life-Authority is ME, and I am 100% teachable, open, willing to learn and accept change to be tested on this point of living as Life-Authority FULLY
I realize Life is Here
Therefore I commit myself to stand as a Living Example - Directing myself in any and every situation to what is best, using Common Sense and Principles as my starting point
I commit myself to direct myself to the best first-order consequences that guarantee the best second and third order consequences, so on and so forth, and I commit myself to Self-Honest Self-Reflection and Willingness for Feedback and Willingness to Change based on the feedback I receive and investigate and apply
I commit myself to full Self-Perfection always and in all ways
I commit myself to prove to myself and show myself that I am Living as the Self-Directive Principle as Life-Authority, establishing Social-Life in ways that are best for all Life
I commit myself to eliminate and rewrite any and every aspect of my mind-consciousness system from any way that is not best, to only what is best for all Life
I realize that REAL LIVING is HERE, breath by breath, within writing AND within fully living in the world-system from Self-Directive principle
I realize that the real social-Life is LIFE based in principle, and that by my continued Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application, I will dissolve and transform the entire social-dominance hierarchy of the world to Social-Life, actings always and in all ways to what is best for all Life
I realize that every breath matters, 1+1+1
I realize that Life-Authority is ME, and I am 100% teachable, open, willing to learn and accept change to be tested on this point of living as Life-Authority FULLY
I realize Life is Here
Therefore I commit myself to stand as a Living Example - Directing myself in any and every situation to what is best, using Common Sense and Principles as my starting point
I commit myself to direct myself to the best first-order consequences that guarantee the best second and third order consequences, so on and so forth, and I commit myself to Self-Honest Self-Reflection and Willingness for Feedback and Willingness to Change based on the feedback I receive and investigate and apply
I commit myself to full Self-Perfection always and in all ways
I commit myself to prove to myself and show myself that I am Living as the Self-Directive Principle as Life-Authority, establishing Social-Life in ways that are best for all Life
I commit myself to eliminate and rewrite any and every aspect of my mind-consciousness system from any way that is not best, to only what is best for all Life
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