Day 47 - Flow Breath by Breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel negative when I have commitments later in the day, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I would rather cancel my plans and just mess around listening aimlessly to information like a drug addict instead of physically living equal and one

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach positive emotions to a ‘free’ and ‘open’ schedule, where I can ‘do what I please’, completely disregarding what is ACTUALLY best for all Life, where it MAY be to fill my calendar completely, it may be to empty my calendar completely, rather the STARTING POINT of who I am with my calendar/relationship to my physical real world doing is what is messed up and I am now writing/righting to correction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that through my real practical living, pushing myself, showing up day after day, putting myself in the cutting edge of time and relationships, that through these moments and this continual application, WHO I AM is expressing and emerging, as I cannot hide behind my closed eyelids and tune out with headphones, rather it is ME, HERE and NOW acting and supporting and giving as I would like to receive, which is a space and support and community, as COMMUNITY is KEY for the creation of what is best for all Life, it is DAILY CONSISTENT APPLICATION and BUILDING, CATALYZING the spark of Life within each and all of us… 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not clarify my starting point with my schedule and how I stack things into my days, rather I haphazardly put things in the calendar without thinking through physical space-time reality and planning what is actually best, until Here no Further

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it IS best what I am doing with my schedule, that WHO I AM in each moment IS trustworthy and this trust is growing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can let go of the need for control, and that WHO I AM in the moment as PRINCIPLE will emerge, always and in all ways, and this will be proven breath by breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate responsibility for cleaning out my entire to-do list, which I KNOW is something beneficial for me to do to ‘clear up’ my processing power even more, so I even MORE effectively show up in all that I do, UNTIL HERE NO FURTHER

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my to-do list and Schedule will not be ‘completed’ for years, or maybe forever, BUT it will keep replenishing itself and clearing itself out like the cells of my body, therefore I can love the process, trust the process and PERFECT the process

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that walking the cutting edge of time, filling my calendar, my to-do list and going all out IS actually what is best, as I am truly seeing who I am and what I am made of, as my starting point IS life and doing what is best for all Life, and this is a daily process I walk, breath by breath, in Radical Self-Honesty

When and as I notice myself wanting to clear my schedule, I stop and I breathe

I realize that my main priority is my 20, 6 and 1 for my business

I realize that in my average week I am able to stay consistent with the pillars of my life, making steady progress and growth in all areas, applying the principle of prevention AS my consistent scheduled meetings and my daily checklist

I realize that things ‘hanging over my head’ are the ultimate gift because I see who I am in relation to myself, to others and to time, where Who I AM as the character that is best for all Life will emerge, breath by breath, step by step

I realize that accumulating self-responsibility in every moment is what matters

Therefore

I commit myself to flow through my day, from the starting point of what is best for all Life, f*** my feelings and opinions, just do what is best and step up to GIVE as I'd like to RECEIVE

I commit myself to continually use my schedule and approach my day and activities in full self-honesty

I commit myself to breathe and be Here

I commit myself the starting point of the Character as Who I AM being Best for All Life, ALWAYS, no matter what

I commit myself to radical Self-Honesty