As a kid I remember I would have friends over for a birthday party.
I also had family over for a party.
I also had family over for a party.
I remember having so much excitement and energy for one of the parties which was at Chuckie Cheese which is an arcade - which is the epitome of consumerism with the sugar-fuel, video games, minimum wage staff and complete obsession with getting gifts and winning tickets to get more gifts, all of which definitely broke or I don't even recall what I got to this day as it was a temporary fad and it ended up in a landfill, still biodegrading back into the earth…. Lol this is sobering…..
Consumerism at its finest.
Birthdays have been Consumption days as long as I can remember.
Until this year, this is the first “birthday” I can honestly say the celebration of my birth will not go in vain, as I understand Life is here, within me and within everyone, as our bodies and as all of this substance that makes up reality, but right now Life is CLEARLY not best for everybody. It’s a Living Hell for billions and billions of people, and we accept and allow our blindness to this Living Hell, because we are like a drug addict chasing the sugar/consumer high of the next big ‘hit’ of fun/energy/emotion, at the expense of Life around us
So this is my writing out of my memory of my birthday celebrations that were really celebrations of consumption, and the rewriting of myself to know and LIVE as what a Life-giving celebration of my Life as Mitchell Snyder in fact looks like and is.
The Life-giving celebration of Life is actually infinitely better and sustainable and the enjoyment really is everlasting as I know what I am doing is best, and therefore there is no crash of the energy when the gifts have all been opened and the sugar wears off and you have to look at the calendar for the ‘next big event’. Now one will see/realize/understand the “big event” is the breath you are taking Here, within the directive principle of doing what is best for all Life. This is the real birth.
Therefore….
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become consumer, consuming physical reality, including from when I was in my mother’s womb, to my immediate environment as I was born, and every day thereafter, I have been a consumer of reality, absolutely failing to see that I AM this reality I am consuming, like a snake eating its tail at an unsustainable rate that is bound to destroy itself unless change is directed within myself and throughout the world
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that energy surrounding birthdays as a ‘positive’ experience has become an abusive tradition in my Life and in our world, as we give gifts and make one feel special just one day of the year, failing to see/realize/understand that Life and each of us should be celebrated daily, through the actions we take that are actually supportive of Life, not a fake consumer gift-giving cake/sugar-eating experience where the ‘birthday boy’ gets one day of feeling ‘superior’ and ‘special’ and the ‘center of the universe’, where the next 364 days is an anticipation of that one energetic experience, like a masturbation cycle where one is addicted to the climactic experience, failing to realize the enjoyment and beauty that is held in the space in between the energetic highs and lows, as that is real stability and that is a real Present
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the deep inner workings of consumerism within my birthday memories, abdicating my directive will of what a real actual celebration of Life would in fact look like, rather I thought of the most fun, most enjoyable, most dopamine/energetic experience possible no matter the consequence, which is what much of our world has become now, a mirror reflection of myself, as I am part of the entire world and what I accept and allow within will of course be accepted and allowed without, so until Here no further
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to establish April 21 (as technically my birthday) to be another gift of a day on Earth, another one out of the 365 yearly days, where I Live as Life, doing what is actually best for all Life, that this may be the real birth of Heaven of Earth, which will take many years yet I stand as this and for this as this is what is best, no cake/presents needed
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give tacit approval with birthday celebrations based in ‘chasing the energetic high’, where the partiers and all involved, plus the entire world, crash and crash and crash, like a drug addict failing to see that the high will be met with an equal and worse crash, all the while the physical body and the physical reality are abused and consumed up at a dangerous pace that is unsustainable
Consumerism at its finest.
Birthdays have been Consumption days as long as I can remember.
Until this year, this is the first “birthday” I can honestly say the celebration of my birth will not go in vain, as I understand Life is here, within me and within everyone, as our bodies and as all of this substance that makes up reality, but right now Life is CLEARLY not best for everybody. It’s a Living Hell for billions and billions of people, and we accept and allow our blindness to this Living Hell, because we are like a drug addict chasing the sugar/consumer high of the next big ‘hit’ of fun/energy/emotion, at the expense of Life around us
So this is my writing out of my memory of my birthday celebrations that were really celebrations of consumption, and the rewriting of myself to know and LIVE as what a Life-giving celebration of my Life as Mitchell Snyder in fact looks like and is.
The Life-giving celebration of Life is actually infinitely better and sustainable and the enjoyment really is everlasting as I know what I am doing is best, and therefore there is no crash of the energy when the gifts have all been opened and the sugar wears off and you have to look at the calendar for the ‘next big event’. Now one will see/realize/understand the “big event” is the breath you are taking Here, within the directive principle of doing what is best for all Life. This is the real birth.
Therefore….
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become consumer, consuming physical reality, including from when I was in my mother’s womb, to my immediate environment as I was born, and every day thereafter, I have been a consumer of reality, absolutely failing to see that I AM this reality I am consuming, like a snake eating its tail at an unsustainable rate that is bound to destroy itself unless change is directed within myself and throughout the world
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that energy surrounding birthdays as a ‘positive’ experience has become an abusive tradition in my Life and in our world, as we give gifts and make one feel special just one day of the year, failing to see/realize/understand that Life and each of us should be celebrated daily, through the actions we take that are actually supportive of Life, not a fake consumer gift-giving cake/sugar-eating experience where the ‘birthday boy’ gets one day of feeling ‘superior’ and ‘special’ and the ‘center of the universe’, where the next 364 days is an anticipation of that one energetic experience, like a masturbation cycle where one is addicted to the climactic experience, failing to realize the enjoyment and beauty that is held in the space in between the energetic highs and lows, as that is real stability and that is a real Present
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the deep inner workings of consumerism within my birthday memories, abdicating my directive will of what a real actual celebration of Life would in fact look like, rather I thought of the most fun, most enjoyable, most dopamine/energetic experience possible no matter the consequence, which is what much of our world has become now, a mirror reflection of myself, as I am part of the entire world and what I accept and allow within will of course be accepted and allowed without, so until Here no further
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to establish April 21 (as technically my birthday) to be another gift of a day on Earth, another one out of the 365 yearly days, where I Live as Life, doing what is actually best for all Life, that this may be the real birth of Heaven of Earth, which will take many years yet I stand as this and for this as this is what is best, no cake/presents needed
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give tacit approval with birthday celebrations based in ‘chasing the energetic high’, where the partiers and all involved, plus the entire world, crash and crash and crash, like a drug addict failing to see that the high will be met with an equal and worse crash, all the while the physical body and the physical reality are abused and consumed up at a dangerous pace that is unsustainable
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to really Live as Life, as from day 1 of my conception, I had been absorbing and accepting and allowing the world of consumer/energy/energetic highs, all conveniently reminded to me through the holidays and celebrations throughout the year, where it becomes blatantly obvious this ‘energetic high chasing’ culture that we have accepted and allowed, while the majority of the world suffers and lives in Hell on Earth, which our ‘energetic high chasing’ directly contributes to, as evidenced by the sugar addictions we have, the gifts that end up in landfills, and the stress of those involved in ensuring that day is ‘so special’ for their little boy or girl, failing to actually give that kid a real education to really prepare and support them to take responsibility for the world and actually see their neighbors as themselves, and to fucking do something about it
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate responsibility for standing as Life and redefining birthday to be the celebration that is Lived breath by breath, realizing the equality and oneness that is literally our reality, we are interconnected and we are all equal as humans, and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand the REAL GIFT that I have uncovered this past year is walking the process to establish oneself Here in the physical, realizing the madness I/We have accepted and allowed, and walking point by point to eliminate this energy-generating-mind-consciousness-system, and to step by step re-write myself through self-forgiveness and self-corrective application as I/We purify this mind-consciousness system so that I/We create a system of Life within and Life without that is Life-giving to all equally, no more special birthday boys needed, as THAT level of equality and oneness is a real special and worthy goal that I will walk into reality day by day until the job is done
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the abuse of birthdays to be an ‘energetic’ high chasing’ and a Consumption Day only, until Here no further
When and as I notice myself participating in ‘energetic high chasing’, and abusive consumption of reality, I stop and I breathe
I realize that for every energetic high there is a crash
I realize that consumerism can be transformed into a system where we can consume REAL quality goods and these can be provided through our marvelous distribution/supply chains of the world, to actually EQUALLY distribute basic human needs, like clean water, quality food, shelter, clothing, basic health care and a true effective and necessary education, which is done through TechnoTutor being installed on a cheap $200 laptop. The resources are Here, the distribution of this is the worthy focus, not birthday gifts, but the gift of Life
I realize that Living Here as Life, and the positive energy that is a result of just doing what is best and living in principle, THAT is a sustainable and everlasting joy that cannot disappear and will not wear off like the birthday cake sugar
I realize that the best redefinition of birthday is every day, the birth when waking up in equality and oneness directing oneself to actually doing what is best, within Self-Honesty, Self-Trust and Self-Responsibility through the Self-Directive Principle
I realize that the real Present we are all after is Here - able to Live and enjoy the Present moment, and the Gift of Life
Therefore I commit myself to stand as a Living Example of what the real birth is, is the birth of Life here in and as the Physical
I commit myself to live the Present of being Here in the Present Moment
I commit myself to remind others the gift of Life that we have all freely received
I commit myself to expose consumerism and how abusive our world has become, all so a small population of children/adults can have a moment of feeling special one day a year, completely blind to the reality that billions suffer daily from the same system that gives them that special momentary feeling
I commit myself to stand as a living example of Life and direct myself always and in all ways to do what is best, therefore Life becomes a celebration that is Lived, and no matter what hardships or difficulties are faced, I am committed to doing what is best and walking this process with myself and others to actually create a world that is Life-giving and supportive of all Life
I commit myself to show that Heaven is not a place you go to when you die, it is the possibility that we have here on Earth as a system that will give to all equally to ensure basic needs are met, therefore bringing about a world like we have never seen, as we keep walking this process, billions will rise from poverty, with basic needs met and able to contribute to this world, and THIS will be the real birth of what humanity is capable of, so I continue to walk this process every single day
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