Day 20 - Honor Life in All Forms

When I was a kid I had a dog named Dexter.

I did not honor his Life in giving him full support with giving him real quality walks and attention.

Nothing blatantly abusive but I was not present with him.

When I learned that he died, I had already moved away and it was more of a relief than anything because I knew taking care of him was stressful for my mom.

I feel guilt that Mom ended up being the primary caretaker of him.

The decision to get Dexter was definitely energy based and it was me and my brother who wanted the dog.

Overall my relationship with Dexter was not one of agreement within myself of actually understanding what the ‘best’ relationship would. There were energetic ups and downs, when he was affectionate, or when he would whine at the table.

I will go back to the original night of when we got Dexter as there is positive emotional charge attachment with it.

I remember I was in the back of the van. Chris and my brother were there. The kennel was on the back seat. I stuck my hand in the kennel and Dexter licked my fingers. I felt fear, excitement, happiness, all beginning the relationship within energy and looking outside myself for an energetic/emotional high.

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to understand that it is best to get clear within myself in my relationships with other life forms, in this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand the best relationship with Dexter is/was one of making love real, honoring his Life form through staying stable in my love/affection/providing of needs/training, and overall taking responsibility for ensuring his Life is honored. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to establish my relationship with Dexter from negative, neutral and positive energy, thus the relationship was one of energy-authority, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to understand what being the Life-Authority in this relationship actually in fact looks like, and then living it

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to support my entire family and to have given as I wanted to receive, by supporting my family in working together in supporting Dexter through the highs and the lows

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that Dexter is equal to and one with Life, just because he is a dog and cannot speak in english words does not make his Life any less valid, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand to honor Life in all forms requires me to see with new eyes the entire Life situation on Earth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest with myself in what is actually best for all Life, where I had proven to myself time and time again that I was not actually willing to do what was best for all Life, through actively taking responsibility to act in ways that make love real with Dexter, so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand and take responsibility for what is already Here in my Life to my fullest capacity, as He who Has, More will be Given

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have believed that dogs are less than, failing to see the for-giving nature of the dog, obedient, Here, equal and one as Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not understand the responsibility to pick up after Dexter when he would poop, just doing it out of spite/excuse/blame/justification, completely failing to see the equality and oneness of the actions of Dexter being alive requires him eating and pooping, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe picking up the poop was less than me, when in reality it is a component equal to and one with Life, and it is my responsibility as a dog owner to pick up after my dog, as that IS best for all Life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the gift within Dexter, and understand what real responsibility is, which is daily application of care, walking the principles whether one feels like it or not, which is a massive gift and for me to have learned this already, and now taking responsibility for it, is Life-giving

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see/realize/understand the Life-giving lessons within Dexter and that first night of meeting him, that energetic-based-agreements are not best and must be clarified, thus I Live this lesson NOW by clearly establishing relationship agreements and Directing Myself to Daily Live the Principles and to Honor Life in All Forms

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that within myself and my first experience with Dexter licking my hand, I immediately felt the fear of loss, that I was now becoming vulnerable and enjoying the positive energy experience, which was coupled with fear of loss of losing the energy experience

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to abuse Life and dishonor Life by participating in Fear of Loss which is not real or valid at all, as being HERE FULLY as LIFE is the ONLY thing that is best, and any fear of loss is a gift to understand where the ego still is, that it may be trapped and deleted through Self-Honest Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to reduce Dexter to a feeling-generating experience for myself, completely abdicating my responsibility as Life to care for him and take responsibility for him, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see/realize/understand and LIVE the real support that is Honoring Life in All Forms, within stability and clarity, Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have judged other dogs and animals as being less than, based on my perception of how cute they are, completely failing to see that my mind-consciousness system uses that energy-conflict to generate and regenerate itself through judgments and opinions, completely failing to see that Honoring Life in All Forms is just that, with no consideration of cuteness/beauty placing one above the other, it is just US being HERE, equal and one with and as Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that breath is the tool by which one can enjoy the Life-giving experiences, without fear of loss as what is Here is Here, and ALL can and will be directed to what is best for all Life through me and us as Life, as breath by breath accumulation of responsibility 

When and as I notice myself experiencing positive emotions or negative emotions with animals, I stop and I breathe

I realize that animals ARE Life-giving

I realize that I am Life-giving

I realize that Life in all forms is worthy of honor and respect through practical action and application of the principles, and therefore any energetic-experience is just that, a byproduct of the Life-giving nature that is Here, which I realize the REAL starting point is Life and I will prove this to myself that this is the real starting point I will live as and exist as

I realize that I can always breathe and be Here

I realize that animals and I can and will have a Life-giving relationship, breath by breath

I realize that Dexter was a wonderful Life-form, and that I have learned a valuable lesson, to CREATE and HONOR agreements, and understand what is my responsibility, that I may live my responsibility to the fullest and be a living example of doing what is best for all Life

I realize that I have forgiven myself within and as my relationship with Dexter and animals, and I will prove to myself that I am for giving

I realize that there is no need to fear loss, as being Here is what matters and taking full responsibility is what matters, and this is what is best for all Life thus I commit myself to what is best for all Life

I commit myself to honor Life in all forms

I commit myself to my inner agreement to be Life-giving to all of Life, and to do what is best for all of Life in my self-honesty and self-trust, and to walk breath by breath with animals and all Life forms

I commit myself to investigate all relationships I have with all Life forms and to establish what Living Best for All actually in fact means and is.

I commit myself to Honor the Life of Dexter through being Here, Life-giving to ALL of Life