Day 19 - What's in a Name?

This post is a deep dive into the word that ties my entire Life together thus far...

My name - Mitchell.

I remember when I was a kid and others would say my name.

My mom would yell Mitchell from the bottom of the stairs when dinner was ready. I remember being irritated because my energetic-authority liked to be doing what I was doing and found it inconvenient to do what my Mom wanted me to do, when that was merely blame, justification, excuses and spite all living within and as me.

My Grandma would call me Mitchell and I would feel love/special/cared for. I also would abuse this love and take advantage of it and do anything/everything to get as much positive energy as possible, completely failing to live in equality and oneness within and as the physical. My Grandpa and all the grandparents would call me Mitchell and I would feel good/neutral and occasionally negative because I didn’t want to be around them as I wanted to go into my own world as energy-god where I could do my own thing, completely abdicating responsibility for doing what is best for all Life.

Back to the origin memory now…..

On day 1 I came out of the womb and I was surrounded by people that are called family. My Grandma Garnett was holding me and talking about Sears/JC penny. This was the beginning of the abuse, caught on camera, completely unaware that she was imprinting me with the world-system and consumerism, completely fucking automated, mentioning these brands in the same sentences as my Name that I was labeled with being - Mitchell Benjamin Snyder.

There are a LOT of memories I have, and they are all holding a few things in common.

They are all from my perspective as self as Mitchell. They all happened on earth. They all are tied to me as Mitchell. The thing that is and has been me throughout my lifetime Here in this incarnation has been my name, and it has been imprinted deeply throughout my Living Flesh. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become complete energy-authority energy-god to myself only, accumulating consequence within and without that are now all being walked out through self-forgiveness and self-corrective application as my self-directive principle breath by breath, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the definition of Mitchell to be one of energy-authority and conflict, Until Here no Further. Through this writing and sounding I establish my resonance and starting point as Life within and as Mitchell within and as equality and oneness with Life Substance/the Physical, and this will be walked out in entirety in my Life in my Self-Honesty, Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application, that Mitchell Snyder will stand and does stand as a Living Example of What is Best for All Life, in every breath, every moment, all time, every time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid coming face to face with the full reality that I have lived completely and purely from ego, even my desires for selflessness had all been from ego

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand how this reality has been set up, where we are conceived and born and immediately begin accumulating breath as ego because our flesh is programmed by the world-system and the parenting structure that currently exists within ego and energy-authority, until Here no further. Through my Life and my Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application, I walk a new reality into existence, as Life, that is the parenting structure of Life and the World-System of Life, this is my 100% absolute devotion and dedication.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand the super-point within and as me that is the Living Word - Mitchell. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to redefine my name Mitchell in a way that is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the nickname Mitch 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have failed to direct myself in equality and oneness within and as Life as Mitch and Mitchell, that each of these words become Living Words in ALL Life for and as what is best for all Life. Mitch = Life. Mitchell = Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react when I hear the word Mitchell

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react when I hear the word Mitch

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that Mitchell is Life Authority and Mitch is Life Authority, writing myself to the visible proof that this is in fact true always and in all ways

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to define Mitchell as equal to and one with Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to define Mitch as wqual to and one with Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have not lived as Mitch/Mitchell as equal to and one with Life in a way that establish myself as Life-giving, until NOW I AM Life-giving and through my Living Words and Visibly Living the Principles and my breath accumulation I will prove this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my accumulation of breath to be one of self-interest and energy-authority, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that all the time, every time, every breath my accumulation of WHO I AM can in fact be Life and be Life-giving

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my physical body as the energetic-parasite-energy-authority and accumulate consequence that require careful thought and attention to properly forgive and re-write, therefore delaying the process even longer of staying HERE in awareness as breath, as I now see it is a battle I have created and I am responsible for, I will effectively win this battle through breath, Self-Forgiveness, Self-Honesty, Self-Trust and Self-Corrective application. There is no need to judge myself and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself, until Here no further. Live. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to Trust Mitchell as Life and to live fully as Self-Trust to do what is best always and in all ways, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be unclear in self-honesty, instead of trusting myself and my breath to have ‘figured out enough’ that I can keep directing myself as LIFE and even though there is some ego in there, this WILL be eradicated as I continue walking process, 7+ years in and as Self-Honesty, therefore it is best to keep moving steady every day like water movement that is consistent, flowing and flexible and powerful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the abuse of the water that is Mitchell in and as my physical body and my structure, in this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed the most effective reprogramming of my water that is Mitchell, yet I continue writing and righting therefore I can now state that I am doing my absolute best for effective programming of my water and my flesh therefore I can now say I trust myself as Mitchell as Life, and this will be an ongoing process I trust myself to walk in Self-Honesty and stay plugged in to the group and support the development of the group therefore all of us together as Life will serve as the regulation and governance of and as Life to live as Life in the way that support Life always and in all ways in the best ways ever

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to take responsibility for my name, my resonance and the image and likeness that is established in reality of and as my name as a Living Word - within and without - equal to and one with Life throughout the Universe, that I am equal to and one with Life Here as me on Earth and throughout the Universe as this is my responsibility to establish Mitchell as Life as Living Word, as we are Here as Life and Life will keep giving Life, therefore my flesh and resonance and image and likeness as the Living Word of Mitchell and my breath accumulation is and will be part of the equation of and as what is best for all Life, always and in all ways through my Self-Directive Principle as Mitchell as Life, Here.

In my first memories of Life I remember that others called me Mitchell, and with it I associated the hyperactivity and the energy-authority that I had already accepted and allowed myself to become from a young age, I LOVED hearing my name and getting people to laugh and pay attention to me because it was my MIND-Consciousness System that loved to generate more energy, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand the consequences of my positive-energy obsession, which I now know I am walking out into reality to correct it in equality and oneness of and as Life, as this is my responsibility as Life and what I have accepted and allowed myself to become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate sadness as the negative energy charging that was required for the positive energy experience, where I now see this negative emotion is FEAR OF LOSS, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate fear of loss through the sadness that is felt as I look at all of my memories of childhood, that I fear losing love, losing the memory, losing the positive and negative emotional attachment as the mind-consciousness system, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing the positive energetic experiences and charges held in mind from the memories of my family.. But at what price? The Price is LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to live as Life, realizing that the positive energetic charges held by myself and my memories as positive and negative emotional attachments of familial interactions are a trap that have kept me bound to Fear and Fear of Loss, UNTIL HERE NO FURTHER

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that I am going in reverse of what my family and the world currently exist as, as mind-consciousness, energy-authorities, and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to establish the BOLDNESS in and as myself and my resonance of who I am as Mitchell as Life that is necessary to be REALLY Here equal to and one with Life, always and in all ways, no matter what

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am an exception to the rules and that somehow I am special, failing to realize the common sense that we are all equal and exceptions are not best rather agreement is best and an understanding of effective agreements is necessary that way the ego-energy-authority has no room to move/grow, as the agreement as Life and Living Relationships within Living Principles and Social Life that is all Life-giving will govern the egos/minds until we are all here in and as support of and as Life to give Life in equality and oneness, no exceptions, nobody is special. Life is special as Life is Life, and this will be apparent as we will prove this as Life, that best for all Life is best, establishing this Here breath by breath. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perpetuate guilt within and as my name and the connections of my name Mitchell to others within my current Social Life, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate responsibility of and as Life to live as breath accumulation and Self-direction in every moment, stable and Here, as Mitchell as Life, doing what is best for all Life, always and in all ways

When and as I notice myself react to my name, I stop and I breathe.

I realize my name is established as a Living Word within myself and will over time become a Living Word through and as others

I realize that I am Here as Life

I realize that I am Living Words and through Self-Directive Principle I can and will do what is best for all Life, always and in all ways in complete Self-Awareness and Self-Honesty to the absolute best of my ability

I realize Mitch = Life and Mitchell = Life and I will be tested in all ways and every way possible to prove this is true, so I welcome the tests and breath by breath I walk through this until the image and likeness of Life is Here as Life on Earth and throughout the Universe, always and in all ways

I commit myself to Life and to what is best for all Life, always and in all ways

I commit myself to understand and Live as Mitchell Snyder as a living example of Life and a visible representation of Visibly Living the Principles

I commit myself to myself as Life

I commit myself to Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application, through my breath by breath accumulation to stand equal to and one with the physical and live as Life in all ways and always doing what is best for all Life