Day 26 - Stingy

Stingy = unwilling to spend money/time/resources

I have had a habit of spending without clarity on what is the appropriate budget so I can be aware of how much I can actually spend before the money is gone

I have had resistance to budgeting, until Here no Further

I have not trusted myself to create consistent income, and then to plan ahead for what is best for spending/saving and investing. My profit and loss statement has been lacking, until Here no further

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see/realize/understand that my profit and loss statement is integral to becoming best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate consequence outflow from not being clear on my profit, thus accumulating expenses and consequences of not planning effectively with my portfolio and wealth building

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to build wealth because of my blatant actions of paying for things without having awareness of if I have enough capital to invest in income generating assets

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to look at, investigate and clarify my burn rate, to remove anything that is not best, and then to double down on income generating activities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have resisted consistently updating my profit and loss sheet, when it is best to do this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and recreate the character of scarcity, where I am unwilling to spend money, yet I stay stuck in this pattern, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see/realize/understand the next logical step to focus my creative power IS on income generating activities, and tracking the profit and loss from these activities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see how simple it is to be objective with money, it is just numbers on a screen, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself fully to take daily consistent and focused action on the business and income generating activities that are best to maximize the numbers on the screen in harmony with what is best for all Life and the principles of what is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in emotions with money, the gaining of money, the loss of money, the fears of spending money or not having enough, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not thoroughly write out the self-forgiveness necessary to thus redefine my relationship with money, until Here no Further

Time to rewrite my relationship with money, starting with my definition of money

Money = a medium of exchange

Worth = Life and the extent to which one sustainably gives as they want to receive over time, to the equal Life-giving world-system that ensures equal basic resource distribution

Rich = Understanding one's worth, and understanding the worth of Life through Visibly Living the Principles, and doing what is best for all Life, that over time all my actually become rich by this definition

World-System of Money = The Life-giving system that distributes resources to ensure the basic needs of all are met, factoring in common sense of equality of opportunity, not equality of outcome, as each individual who is provided for (through basic needs including education) will have to take their own responsibility to build on top of the foundation that is provided for by the World-System of Money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to investigate my origin point within and as money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand my origin point had been fear and spending, and balancing at $0.00 USD, until Here no further

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that the best origin point is the awareness of the net worth increasing month over month over month, on a quarterly basis and yearly basis

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see/realize/understand that fear has existed within my relationship with money, Until Here no Further

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, from my childhood, failed to see/realize/understand that my focus can ALWAYS be on what is going to create income sustainably for myself first, as I must ensure I am good before I can substantially support others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that as I develop my ability to spot opportunity and solve problems for others, which is how money/value is created, that through my process of establishing this problem-solution system, that I can be aware of what I am doing, and teach this to others, then in turn scale up the problem-solving system that I have created, which is the process of being a truly successful entrepreneur without limit to my capability and ability to generate money and impact in the world to transition us to a world that is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that business is impossible to master

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that accounting is impossible to master

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that money is impossible to master

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that effective resource distribution is impossible to master

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that scaling up a global company that actually does what is best for all Life is impossible to master

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my emotions and my characters in relationship to money are impossible to fundamentally re-write, until Here no Further

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/understand and Live as my Worth, which is my Life and my breath accumulation, where through who I am throughout my Life timeline is one that can learn, adapt, grow, evolve, teach and support others as I give as I want to receive, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to give as I want to receive, which put plainly, is ME giving solutions to problems to eradicate anything that is not best

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that humans (including myself) are limited in their expression and their ability to evolve and adapt and collectively transform the current world-system, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that my resistances to grow, to act, to track my finances, to build my business, to write self-forgiveness and visibly live the principles, that THAT resistance is the point of change within and as myself and the entire world-system, as I know that as I breathe, as I write and as I correct my application in my daily living, I stand as a living example and a resonant seed of the New World-System of Equality that is Best for All Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand that I need not live as the word Stingy anymore, as I realize the starting point of stingy is just ignorance to understand what is my real agreement with money and my tracking of finances, to therefore establish real positive cash flow and real profits where I can now stand as a stable point within and as the world-system of money where we can come together in principle doing business on a local, national and world-wide scale

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that quickbooks is going to be extremely important for me to have the stability where I can actually establish self-trust with my entire business operations and my relationship to the world-system of money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see/realize/understand the simplicity of utilizing TechnoTutor and building my vocabulary, to thus make the process of understanding accounting, business, taxes, finances, profitability all synthesized into who I am, so I may increase my value and worth in the world-system and stand as a stable point to all where we Live the Real World-System, that is equal and one as the World-System and as Life, Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have refused to redefine stingy until now

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have failed to redefine stingy as what is best for all Life, where stingy is just the indicator that one has resistance to looking at the truth, where one can be supported as an absolute individual through writing self-forgiveness and being tapped into the community of like-minded individuals who understand what is required to become a stable point in the world-system of money that gives equal resource distribution - therefore Stingy = Ignorance and Indicator to Re-Establish Oneself in Stability and Awareness of the “Rules”, the Score, and the Consistent Tracking of the Score

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed ignorance of the rules and of the score, Until Here no Further

When and as I notice resistance to money I stop and I breathe

I realize that money is the life-blood of the current world-system and Who I Am as Money is purifying its starting point as Life, through my daily walking of my process and consistent application of myself visibly living the principles

I realize that it is possible to become a stable point in the world-system of money and to stand within and as principle of the World-System being Life-giving

I realize that daily consistent application in walking process WILL get me to the point of stability

I realize that my current excel spreadsheet of my finances is my current score

I realize that I must establish my understanding of the burn rate of my current main business focus, so I can understand what is required for the next year of financing

I realize that over time and my consistent dedication to Life that I will create everything I am committed to and I will be rich so that all may be rich

Therefore

I commit myself to sort out Quickbooks so I can fully trust when I login to Quickbooks

I commit myself to establish the best antifragile money agreements

I commit myself to be okay not spending money on personal desires

I commit myself to establishing the best relationship with business, money and people all from the starting point of oneness and equality and what is best for all Life 

I commit myself to track my finances on the 1st and 15th

I commit myself to lead by example of building the sales system that sells TechnoTutor consistently every week and month

I commit myself to honor my budget as an extension of myself